Do you think your depression is a choice or a disease? I always felt that it was my rationality to be the reason, my situation/philosophy, but couldn’t a physical disorder (like the theory of serotonin lacking) be the real base of the thought process?
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I don’t know what exactly it is but I know damn sure it’s not a choice period. Anybody who says its a choice needs to be involuntarily kicked in the balls and then asked “was it a choice”?….. Nobody….NOBODY chooses to feel this way….Nobody wants to be this way.
I strive for knowledge, and that has seemed to make me depressed. This is why existential depression is so weird, for it is apparently not caused by a chemical imbalance, but rational thinking. Nonetheless, I certainly never wanted to be depressed.
Depression is a result.
Society makes boxes and wants everybody to fit in them. Unfortunately there aren’t enough boxes, or it would be too difficult to make boxes for a certain kind of people, or it’s too complicated to drop the need to put everything in boxes.
I don’t know why, but as far as I can see depression is the result of boxlessness.
in my situation it is crazy to not to be depressed.
but whether it is your life or mental thing it is not your choice
I understand you the most because i had and still have that kind of thinking. It was a couple of years ago that i was fond of philosophy and really looked for the meaning of life into it. I was sure i would have studied that at the university, because studying every other thing had no sense, i had to find the meaning. But all those philosophers (who i still admire, because in some part we shared an uneasiness, even though different) never turned out to give me that answer. It remained a vague awareness (particularly by the existential ones, Pascal Kierkegaard Nietzsche Sartre) of the futility of so many efforts and research, since everyone of them Always (and i’m putting the capital letter) turned to a banal, expected faith in something (god the first two, yourself the third, the others the last, if i’m recalling right). And here i am, asking if this ancestral question is not, in the end, just an awful way of hiding other concerns or a physical lack. If you have some philosopher you want to advice me, i’d be glad. More, you don’t sound english to me and neither am i. are you from somewhere?
that was for you @depressednihilist95
#Hella that’s a good point. You are the girl who’s moving out, aren’t you? So the limits and the restraints put by society (like for example living a normal extraboring life in your hometown all your life long) don’t help at all
@PN @iFree eventually nobody wants to feel this goddamn way, no matter all the philosophy and shit
I have never even really read much philosophy, but existentialism is like saying: “Life is pointless, but we can still make our own meaning, and then we will die and be forgotten!” This is why I consider myself a nihilist, particularly an existential nihilist. I do not think that we can ever create a “real” or permanent meaning, for we are born from cells that seem to think of nothing, and then, poof! We can think and we have feelings!
I am from the USA, by the way.
genius.my real disease is not depression. Ladies and gentlemen
I have boxlessness.
@ifree in my condition too.
Yes that’s basically it..
@depressednihilist When I was your age I considered myself to be an existential nihilist, too, as well as an Absurdist. I suppose I still am, but I don’t tend to go down those pathways of thought any more. One gets to a point where they accept everything as it is, and it negates any further need for contemplation.
– I still enjoy philosophy, however. There’s a great deal I have yet to read.
@benna
Screw you.
@benna this is 100% my situation. I can’t find a way out. I think existentialism fucked me up all the more..
@idle good luck then..
I guess its both, for we, the magical humans, are able to control chemicals which control us!
@joinel sorry man, that was the answer to the nihilist 🙂
@Persephone I feel like i am coming to the place you are describing, and i hope DN95 is on his way too.. it’s like: whatever! I don’t think there’s more to be discovered from this position.
It’s good also because it can be relaxing, sometimes, thinking that nothing is going to last. Nihilism, with a maybe more mature or resigned mind, can be kind of peaceful: knowing that you are going to disappear may free you from some of the burden of expectations (Steve Jobs made a wonderful speech about this, you absolutely have to see it, it’s the Stanford commencement speech).