I am totally useless, worthless… I am nothing. My inner voice of negativity is winning, and my mood swings are taking over. I want to cut again… I want to turn off all the lights, and cry in the dark.
I will never achieve anything, I am wasting my time and others. I am selfish, I am incredibly and irrefutably USELESS.
What’s the point of living when I have nothing to offer? There is no point….
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That is society telling you you’re nothing.
Placing expectations on you that you can’t live up to.
Telling you you don’t fit in.
But you’re valuable. You’re useful. You’re beautiful.
Someone needs you. Someone needs your help in their life. Someone needs you in their life.
My father used to say i was all those things, especially when he was drunk.
Even when a wake up 5 A.M and work like a horse for 14 hrs… without make any mistakes.
I used just shut my mouth and listen. Some times i await he go sleep and i start to cry… some times i beat my head at some wall…holping that make my head explode and the pain and frustation just disappear.
Have been 13 years he died sick and i still having those feelings.
I´m not doing realy well, afterall i´m here… but you can be sure… Me, you and anyone else should not think or feel this way.
You not alone having these feeling ok, hang on, start erase the bad thinking because are them that make you start feeling bad.
Hope thats words help.
Sorry about my bad english… maybe because we are talking about feelings you can understand…
You’re not useless. If you feel you can’t do anything for yourself, maybe you can make a difference for someone else. All you need to do is reach out. There’s a lot of lonely people in the world who feel the same way you do.
The clear expression of your feelings shows you are not useless.
Consider reading some viewer responses to this book about how we all need to unlearn our programming (I’m not suggesting you buy it): http://www.amazon.com/The-Four-Agreements-Practical-Personal/dp/1878424319
Anything by J. Krishnamurti will likewise discuss rejecting all authority (including the inner authority programmed into us by our parents and peers). Don’t let his name fool you, he was no guru and rejected ALL religions and formulas. (I despise self-help authors).
I grew up thinking I was a worthless monster incapable of being loved. I believed this until my 30s. I am 42 now with a wife and beautiful daughter, but I never forget where I came from. It is an essential part of me.
This is NOT a plug for my book. I wrote this with no audience to satisfy other than myself. I only made a $1.40 in royalties. I did it with no support from anyone. http://www.amazon.com/cigarette-you-cant-light-wind/dp/1483992462/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1378043407&sr=1-1&keywords=a+cigarette+you+can%27t
Look within yourself without judgment and you will find a voice–one that is immeasurably stronger than all of the other ones in you and outside of you telling you you are worthless.
Life isn’t about having things to offer. You don’t need to live that way with your only purpose being to satisfy others. Do something for you because you want to do it. Live for yourself because you’re the only reason worth living for.
Did you have an abusive mother/father? Did they constantly tell you, you were useless? Until you believed it? If yes, I am the same, and while I know my sense of uselessness isn’t really what my “inner voice” suggests, it can be quite overwhelming.
On the whole, I think goals don’t exist in universe, only in society. In the universe things and creatures just exist without any purpose. If you have a purpose, you are an object. But we are not objects, we are living beings, we stand on top of the evolution ladder, we are the high-tech products of the universe. Human beings inherently lack purposes. We don’t have to achieve things to be valuable, we are the achievements of the universe. Don’t listen to those who can only love you conditionally.
@Hella:
“Don’t listen to those who can only love you conditionally.”
So… that rules out just about everyone. In fact, i might surmise that the ONLY person that can ever “unconditionally” love anyone, is themselves.
Literally everyone has conditions. The only one we’re stuck with, is ourselves… so we better figure out how to get along with us, or it’s going to be an even more harsh ride.
@clevername:
You are right. In the end, and in the most significant questions we shouldn’t listen to anybody but ourselves.
However there can be a huge difference in people’s expectations. Some people set up just too many, often impossible conditions to their “loved” ones. And if you surround yourself with too much people like that, it’s almost impossible to escape depression and agony.