General trapped by 1298 9/13/2013 written by 1298 9/13/2013 i actually just don’t have a way out right now. not from lack of motive, or opportunity, just a lack of means what should i do in the meantime? drinking now. but i’ll wake up eventually and i really don’t want to 4 comments 0 Email Related posts Tonight I feel like sabotaging tomorrow 10/21/2020 A post to lighten the mood (My first... 10/20/2020 Hydrochloric acid and bleach 10/20/2020 Red and Blue 10/19/2020 Cover story needed 10/19/2020 10/19/2020 hopeless 10/19/2020 I failed 10/19/2020 Just feel like a zombie on auto pilot 10/18/2020 I have a plan and am thinking of... 10/18/2020 4 comments tbd 9/13/2013 - 9:26 pm In the meantime, relax and don’t take shit seriously. For me, working my plan empowers me into thinking I still have a tiny wedge of control, and that makes me get less upset when waves hit. If things resolve, great, my preparations will just take up wasted space. Log in to Reply 1298 9/13/2013 - 10:57 pm you’re very kind. don’t worry i don’t take anything too seriously… that’s part of the problem. for example, i’m pretty drunk right now. i never delude myself with the thought that i have some control, though, because i know that i don’t. if i do end up being able to kill myself, ever, it will be a mixture of apathy from others and a small part of my own skill… so altogether not that much of a miracle, but yeah Log in to Reply rach 9/13/2013 - 11:24 pm Lack of means here too. And lack of opportunity. My only option is to try hanging myself outside from a tree. But I live in a busy town full of neighbours and police. Log in to Reply 1298 9/13/2013 - 11:31 pm saaaaaame. when people say that depressed people are just too fucking lazy or inconsiderate or unsure about themselves to actually follow through, they are so wrong. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.