abused and broken

from the age 3-11 i was abused by my mom and dad, they used to lock me in the celler and keep me there i used to get whipped on my back and i wouldnt get fed till 9 at night no breakfeast i was bearly living i was named disgraced i even have it scarred into my skin from my dad my brothers couldnt do anything i couldnt talk to my brothers or sister till i was old enough to leave the house im now 14 suffering from self-harm but that is the only thing for my relief, i have no idea why my parents did this to me but they did and i feel like i cant keep a relationship because im scared for them to see who i am but i have got a boyfriend who i love and fell in love and will do my best to keep this relationship going..