i just tell to my gf i do drugs. she told me she has some curiosity, and would like to try someday. she told me she used to mix alcohol and some pills in order to get high, i think it was valium and sertraline the pills. it’s fucking weird. when she told me that, about the cocktail alcohol-meds, i felt that my feelings for her changed and became more intense. i don’t know. i think it’s because i luv drugs and i think about drugs all the time, and when i recognize this in somebody else besides me it feels great. cuz i don’t feel so lonely anymore. i also did that thing, mixing alcohol and meds, but i did with prozac and clonazepam. but the point is that before now she was just a girl, i didn’t liked her too much. it was just physical.
now i have some feelings for her, and it all started when we started to talk about drugs. i see her in a completely diferent way now. dammit.
but i have some fears. i would love so much to do drugs with her. but that wouldn’t be immoral. but i can deny that that is what i really want.
fucking pathetic.
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your depressed. My relationship with drugs is not very long I spent about a year and a half trying a lot of stuff.. mostly was a pot head and did a shit ton of E. I learned I was self medicating my depression. the only times I felt “happy” was when I was high and when I came down I was usually more depressed then when I started. I dragged my at the time BF down with me. It made HIS issues so very much worse. flash forward we are married two children on the brink of divorce. his depression and the drugs were the start of a downward spiral with him. and it brought out a LOT of other issues and “self medicating” behaviors that have ruined our relationship. I feel bad that I am the one who introduced him to the stuff. so be very very careful please and maybe seek help for yourself.