Last night I attempted to commit suicide using the “detergent suicide” method. Unfortunately, it did not work out the way I had hoped. I am unsure if I should have doubled the amount of lime sulfur & toilet bowl cleaner. Basically I got in my car, mixed up the chemicals and for a few seconds the signature “rotten egg” smell was very apparent but then olfactory fatigue kicked in as has been mentioned. I started taking deep breaths of the mixture and in about 1 minute I began to feel as if there was no air to breath. I tried to remain calm, but my body went into panic mode and I pulled open the door, fell out of the pavement and began having seizures and hallucinating. I am unsure how long this lasted, but when I came to I did not know who or where I was for about 1 minute. Once I came to my senses a bit more I got back in the car and tried again. Same thing, just it took longer. Third attempt I think the gas had dissipated too much from the door being open while I was seizing.
I will try again, but this time double the amounts of chemicals and also drink and take some sleeping pills to avoid that panic. As much as I wanted to stay in the car, I couldn’t. It was a very unpleasant feeling and now I am quite disappointed and depressed.
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I don’t mean to pry, but What brought you to such a place that you would want to do such a thing? That’s a terrible end for a person.
you got high and tripped on a mixture of cleaning supplies, while you actually wanted to kill yourself? sorry but i kind of lold when i read this story
^ sheesh talk about insensitive remarks
I was, until recently, a normal person with a good job and decent life. Due to losing my home & job I now live in my car and I’ve had to resort to prostitution to feed myself. I cannot deal with it any longer.
There are many forms of prostitution, and most of them are not as potentially enjoyable or lucrative as sex.
You’re doing better than i: you have a car and people are willing to pay to have sex with you; two things i can only wish i had.
Also, i’m quite sure there are ways to acquire food and money without resorting to prostitution. You could probably try one of the non-sexual forms of trading your identity, time and labor, for money/food. Unless you think working is worse than prostitution.
I’m actually intrigued by all the creative ways people come up with, to avoid a more direct and irrevocable, higher probability approach. Seems like a lot of hassle for what amounts to unreliable methods with risk and high probability of survivable brain/nerve/respiratory damage. If you damage yourself too much, you won’t even have the option of resorting to prostitution anymore… or even just getting a job and slogging through the trenches of a miserable but minimally sustainable life. You could end up crippled, institutionalized, or just indigent and homeless, and very much alive.
bookends, where are you located? I was thinking of this method too. If you don’t want to go alone please contact me.