It’s weird. I love helping people and it makes me feel good about doing it. Here lately I’ve been thinking about sharp objects. A few months ago I tried slitting my wrist and just being done with everything… I just want to be done with life… But I guess it’s not my time yet…
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It’s always our time to do “something” with ourselves!
It’s the intention behind that action that…. Wait… Now I’m starting to sound like Clevername! lol
Ok.. Let me start over! The RealTalk way! 😉
You have to do something with yourself, we all do. The urge to move forward in some sort of progress to achieve a higher (easier) form of existence (mentally/physically/spiritually).
If one is lonely, the solution to ones problems is to couple up with another. Wether that be friends of mutual benefit, or intimate life partners, whatever. We just want and need that validation (mentally/physically)
If one is “lost” in their existence, the solution is to find enlightenment (or assistance) towards where and how they fit into this world/life, and achieve some sort of benefit from that knowledge (assistance) to create an “easier” perspective of how to look at every day kaos and how it effects them. Cuz if the world was one big apple orchard and all we had to do was eat, sleep, love and look after apples..none of us would feel lost. But it just isn’t that way. Everyone is assigned a different position in this life. Everywhere you go, there is a different kind of trouble to be found, or some one else posing a threat towards you. There is always some thing that will effect a persons placement in this world, and it’s up to the individual to place or replace themselves how they see fit.
If you option out if life itself then there is no point in having done anything to begin with.
I think it’s great you love helping people. That’s a wonderful personality trait to have. Compassion for others.
As for playing with sharp objects; I myself have those thoughts/urges from time to time. I can go months without thinking/wanting to cut myself or hurt myself like that.
Sometimes people who help others forget themselves and perhaps you just need to take care of yourself for a bit and lick/heal some old wounds.
If you could do anything, anything at all right now and money, time, circumstances were no issue… what would you choose to do?
I have always wanted to do something for others, like donate bone marrow or something like that ive just always been to young. But really if I could go anywhere right now if I could do anything, I would go to an LSU game. Even though thats not something that most people would chose that’s just me.