Just so you know. I’m Norwegian and Bamse in Norwegian means Teddy. My grandparents had a cat along with Sissi. Bamse was an amazing cat, kinda funny too cause he was missing his two front teeth so his tongue would always stick out a bit. He was a British shorthair cat I think. He’d go hunting at night and sleep all day. He once fell asleep in my lap and he’d make a growling sound if I moved so I had to stay there for about an hour reading. He was put down shortly after Sissi because he refused to eat and never went outside… Like he was mourning her, just like I did. I’m glad they put him out of his misery but I’m so sad that he’s not here anymore… He used to be my moms cat but when she moved, since he was an outdoor cat, she gave him to my grandparents. Bamse is a real cuddly teddy. His full name is actually BamsePus which means TeddyCat. Kinda funny actually since “Pus” is a female cat in Norwegian and he was male. I miss him along with Sissi…
I wish they’d put me out of my misery and mourning like they did with Bamse… I could have avoided all this pain and guilt and sadness.
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i have a 14 year old cat,that i have raised to love me.hes been on steroids most of his life.dispite my cats illness,he is still very happy.my mental illness in volves social phobia to a point of being around any human,makes me in constant suffering.the only being in the world i love is my cat.haveing a human friendship,in my condition is not an option.my cat is in the last years of his life.i realize when i loose my cat,the only being i have ever loved,it would be the best time to commit suicide.it would be an honor to follow him to the same place.at lease we will be closer in the same nonexsistance then me trapped on earth,haveng a painfull broken heart.
I wish I could have gone with Sissi and Bamse when they went.
To avoid all the pain. I’m not very social and I got phobia of crowds,
So I kinda understand. Didn’t know there was a phobia for people though.
the symptoms of social phobia is brought on by my main brain disease,parinoid skizaphrinia.in a way u could say i am literally alergic to people.over the years the bond with my cat has only grown.i have built up a relationship that grew more with ever day of his 14 years.this cat can not be replaced with another kitty,because i beleive,with my current diseases,being a cancer patient.i wont be alive long anough to build a relationship with a new kitty,that would take a total 14 years to build a same level of bond.im not terminal right now,and had surgery removeing the cancer.but with my mental illness and unhealthy life style,i expect the cancer to return or die from another fatal disease in the near future.so raiseing a new kitty is pointless because, i will most likely die on it.leaveing a replacement kitty abandon from my death before i could build the kind of bond that took 14 years.so i know the best time for me to die, is as soon as possible when my cat passess soon.i think it would be very father like,to follow his baby to a new place.my only problem is that i can find a suicide method that i am comfortable with.im doing the best i can to find a way to go,in the same day.but finding a method, with out being able to get a gun,is so much harder then i ever thought.14 years ago, i named my cat ANGEL.his name is the only meaning that adds up in my life.my cat angel, has truely been a gardian.
That’s really amazing! It sounds a bit like me and Sissi only that I was like her little puppy.
I hope you’ll be happy with whatever you do.
I’m just 15 years old and I don’t know many suicide methods but if I had to choose I’d choose drowning or poison.
Great post, I can totally relate. My best friend is my cat. He’s an amazing animal and I think he is the main reason I haven’t caught the bus yet. I don’t think I can wait til je passes, he’s only I middle age in cat years. I’m working to make sure he’ll be well taken care of when it’s timeto go.
Why don’t you take care of him till his time to go and then you go with him?
That’s what I would do…
i just got back from the today.and was told i need a kemo treatment on friday.i didnt think i was going to need kemo because i had the organ removed a little over a month ago.i do not have a terminal experation date from cancer at this time.but with bad mental illness,unhealthy substance abuse,being limited functioning and other medical diseases.at age 36, i am droping in health fast.and am fearing i will die before my cat dies.this leaveing my cat abandon.that would leave my cat fucked.i have been trying to find a plan for care for my cat, if i die first.but so far im failing at finding a source to inshure his protection.understand my cat needs to be pilled dayly and requires expensive prescription cat food, to keep his vomiting at a minimum.renobill,sissi or anybody.can u help with ideas of insureing loveing care for my cat if i go first?
Um…. Well, firts of all I’d have to know where you live to be able to do some research.
poison,drowning,im not secure in doing if my cat dies before me.i need a gun. i am so discusted that i cant obtain one.
Hmmm. Hanging? I think the death of your cat would be upsetting enough to perhaps kill you though.
either way me and my cat are fucked.its either i die first, leaveing my baby stranded and helpless. or my cat dies first leaveing unable to follow him in the same day, because the only method im ok with, is a gun to the head. and i cant get one.
First, I totally relate. My cats, throughout the years, have literally kept me living. I’ve loved them and they have loved me more than anyone else. When my first treasure died, friends feared I might go with her, but something strange happened. I realized that I had followed through for Pooh, my cat, completely, to the end; and that gave me a kind of peace. I have her ashes to be mixed with mine someday. Now I’m in love with my part-Siamese Lyra who loves me like Pooh did.
Cancer patient: I don’t know where you live but there must be some animal rights groups in your area. You could Google search for them. And one of those groups I’m certain will take care of your cat when you pass.
As to drowning… Very hard to do to oneself. You will want to breathe and your animal instinct will kick in, despite your will to die, and you will fight your way to the surface for air. I know. I tried to kill myself with pills and when I stopped breathing, I woke up and struggled to breathe.
I am so sorry this life has been painful for you. I hope there are future lives, perhaps on another planet, different world, where you can live as the happy being you deserve to be. And that your cat will be with you. That is my dream for you. Please know I care.
Vedura in NC. USA
if my cat dies first, i am realy starting to consider the method of hanging.ive heard u can do it from a sealing fan. i looked at my fan and i dont know if it can support 245 pounds.does any one know, how to rig a hanging post? keep in mind, my sealing is dry wall. do u think the fan would support my weight? i need information so i can follow my cat.
A ceiling fan would not support your weight. You might, however, snap your neck and be paralyzed. Please don’t try that one. You wouldn’t get a second chance.
then i need to find a way to get the materials to build a strong post for hanging.my health is droping and my cats time is limited? i must be planed to follow my baby to the land of the dead………im going to open a post on suggestions on this soon.stay in touch vendura.
Cancer patient, as an animal rights activist, an avid animal lover and a vegan I can completely understand where you’re coming from. Plus I have 4 cats that I ADORE like crazy! But… you don’t need to “follow” your cat anywhere. If there is an afterlife, he will be waiting for you and there won’t be a need to rush to take your own life to follow him. This post made me feel so sad.
And I totally agree with vedura. Hanging yourself will result in a broken neck which would be dreadfully painful and drawn out. My friend did that, and I found him. We rushed him to the er. He was on life support for 4 days and his neck was broken. It looked so painful. I’m having horrible flashbacks as I type this, so I’ll stop there. But trust me, you do not want to endure what I saw him go through. 🙁
cagedtiger i understand ur point,in that there is no afterlife,and following my cat immediatly after my cats death would not achive us to reunite. it just seems to me like that would be the best time to go. id think liveing with a broken heart would be like another disease,causeing a hole new way of suffering. my rational mind tells me that the hurt and lost love will fade in time.and i should try to form another love by adopting another cat when my cat passes. and try to have another relationship with the remaining time i have left. its just that,it took 14 years to build that level of bond. and i couldent imagine my remaining time here being close to 14 years. id be lucky if id have 5 years. if i decide to stick around the bond with the next cat wont be as strong as my 14 year old. i guess,thinking rasionaly a new relationship with limited time wont be the same as my current 14 year old,just very different.ok,i am now in the mind frame that im not going to follow my cat in death.but my other reason for being suicidal is my fear of dieing a slow and painfull death in a hospital from cancer,if my cancer treatment fails. i still need to cover my ass with an escape plan that im secure with. my search for a plan continues.