I’ve never talked about my feelings about suicide to anyone, but, I think I should start now because I don’t know where to turn. I’ve gone through a shit of things in the past few months with the passing of most of my grandparents and other relatives. All within days apart, then there’s my parents going through their nasty divorce and all this other shit.. I just need some sort of guidance.. I’m 17 and had a big plan for my future but right now, that plan will never come true. I’m fucking up in school and I don’t know if its because i’m lazy or just too damn focused on staying alive.. During the summer my dad and I fought a lot. Both physically and verbally, and every when were not fighting id be up in my room with a gun to my head telling myself to just do it and all my problems will just go away. Now i know that my problems may not be as extreme as most peoples, but well idk. I’m not one who talks a lot. Well really at all. So I have all of my problems from my life all bottled up and well, its all coming out. And all at once. Any words of advice?Coming down This video explains what me and my recent ex girlfriend are currently going through and have been for a while. Someone. Anyone. Please help me find the wisdom and hope to carry on.
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you came to the right place. Many of us here are just like you. My wife left me after 14 years, that messed me up, i tried to end it, actually went through with it, but messed it up.
What I can say is that you have a lot going on, but hang in there, talk to us, come to this site, we help each other.
Id say more right now, but can’t but I’ll be back on here tomorrow (Friday). try and make it. You will find a lot of support.
trust me, we work together here.
Thank you so much. It truly means a lot. I feel more comfortable talking to people with the same things im going through instead of my parents who give me constant shit about it. This is honestly my last resort to help ive got. Sorry to hear about your wife. I understand thats a hard thing to go through and I thank you for helping me out.. Ill be back tomorrow (Friday) at 1500hrs. Again thank you for helping me out.
You are welcome.
Its just very late here now, and I am getting a severe headache, can barely read thr computer screen, but as said, Ill be back here tomorrow.
Others are always here as well.
Understood and hope your headache goes away!
this is a really great website I didn’t even know about it., until you told me. we’re here for you 🙂
You’re 17 and you have a gun? Damn.
I can’t watch that video right now, but what sort of advice would you like?
I can honestly say that once you leave your parents’ home everything will change, so don’t give up now on account of arguments you may have with them.
@perksofbeingawallflower – That’s one of my favorite books and films. 🙂 You clearly have good taste.
Yeah. I have many. There all right next to my bed. I just need help on how to get through each day because honestly i feel like im going to kill someone else or myself. Everyday I get harassed by my mom because im a failure in life and I cant do anything right and pretty much my families mistakes are all my fault. I just recently enlisted in the United States Army, but im a senior in high school with grades dropping dramatically due to stress, lack of sleep, and many more things. Im trying to do things with my life but right now nothing seems to be going for me..
You’re right, you have been through an awful lot in a short period of time. In addition 17 is the year we “know everything” or think we should, nothing could be further from the truth.
Because you have been through so much you really do need some time to go through the grieving process. My father died when I was 15, I don’t say this for your sympathy but rather to let you know I had to grieve while going to school. My grades slipped, I missed days but I did finish despite a long grieving period.
Be patient with yourself, let your student counselor and teachers know about your deceased and broken family. They will help you and if your Mom or Dad have insurance go to a therapist, they’ll help you go through the process.
read my post( happy healthy and ready to die) at the end I give advice for getting happy, you might not think it but once you make it out of the house and on your own life gets better , and we all lose close loved ones at one point or another , I lost my sister when she was 29 her two kids lost their mother at 7 and 9 yrs old I lost 2 nieces both a year old so that means my brother and my deceased sister both lost their children how fucked up is that , I was a piñata with teeth for my first step dad from age 4-10 yrs old got beat with all kinds of fun objects from 2×4 lumber to wooden broom sticks till they broke on my body some of my first memories was being beat, and my teen years I was off and on homeless and addicted to hardcore drugs .im not looking for sympathy its just life is not always rainbows and cotton candy it can be shitty at times , but if you better yourself and your environment and learn how too communicate intelligently , calmly , and with respect to your father that might clear that up, but as for people you love dying that’s just life , it sucks at times, just make sure to stay off anti-depressants those increase the risk of suicidal thoughts and actions greatly , google ssri stories , ssri are anti depressants.
and I hope that helps a bit , be blessed .
If you want to do something positive immediately that requires nothing but your willingness to do it, get rid of the guns. Too difficult? Too dangerous? Too anything?
Next, get in touch with a professional counselor at school, mental health clinic, church, wherever. Have you not heard that confession is good for the soul?
G.W.