Yes, the mind becomes frantic, racing and driven by thoughts of harm and regret. The attack upon the self is pursued relentlessly, though it goes nowhere. It is a hamster wheel of increasing pain and myopic focus on pain to the exclusion of all else. It is self propelling, exhausting the one who takes fear as master.
How can the feared and inevitable be avoided? Deny its hold on your thinking. Will this seem contrary to truth? Yes. Does this mean you can not do it? No. The investment in the power of what Freud called the id, is itself a relinquishment of your own power of choice that another direction be taken. And you want to take another direction, because you can see the end point of the direction you are on.
As intimated in The Matrix, you are slave. Do you want to know what the Matrix is? You have created an illusionary world around you that simply reflects your belief in guilt back to you so you can look upon it. But seeing it outside, you think that it is real and want to flee instead of looking at its source, deep and hidden inside your own mind.
You believe that you are guilty of the original sin or, more accurately, that you are being punished for it and that God has banished you from Heaven. This was never true, but your beliefs are hidden wishes that can not be denied to you. Having wished for it, the appearance, though not the reality, is given, so nothing is left but anticipating the time of death at the end of a meaningless life. Were this the truth, God would be the cruel and raging madman that some imagine. But it is not true and you do not need to play the game of death any longer.
Still deeper within is the true Self, the Son to the Father. This is the truth to which all sign posts point, when the willingness to forgive is finally embraced. The cost of salvation is simply that your brother, also, must be saved.
G.W.
P.S. I am not interested in a debate, but I am interested in whether this is helpful, as I hope that it is.
man, i know the feeling and just imagining the way ur feeling right now, im here if u need to vent.. i know its tough but stand strong and push yourself..
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Yes, the mind becomes frantic, racing and driven by thoughts of harm and regret. The attack upon the self is pursued relentlessly, though it goes nowhere. It is a hamster wheel of increasing pain and myopic focus on pain to the exclusion of all else. It is self propelling, exhausting the one who takes fear as master.
How can the feared and inevitable be avoided? Deny its hold on your thinking. Will this seem contrary to truth? Yes. Does this mean you can not do it? No. The investment in the power of what Freud called the id, is itself a relinquishment of your own power of choice that another direction be taken. And you want to take another direction, because you can see the end point of the direction you are on.
As intimated in The Matrix, you are slave. Do you want to know what the Matrix is? You have created an illusionary world around you that simply reflects your belief in guilt back to you so you can look upon it. But seeing it outside, you think that it is real and want to flee instead of looking at its source, deep and hidden inside your own mind.
You believe that you are guilty of the original sin or, more accurately, that you are being punished for it and that God has banished you from Heaven. This was never true, but your beliefs are hidden wishes that can not be denied to you. Having wished for it, the appearance, though not the reality, is given, so nothing is left but anticipating the time of death at the end of a meaningless life. Were this the truth, God would be the cruel and raging madman that some imagine. But it is not true and you do not need to play the game of death any longer.
Still deeper within is the true Self, the Son to the Father. This is the truth to which all sign posts point, when the willingness to forgive is finally embraced. The cost of salvation is simply that your brother, also, must be saved.
G.W.
P.S. I am not interested in a debate, but I am interested in whether this is helpful, as I hope that it is.
man, i know the feeling and just imagining the way ur feeling right now, im here if u need to vent.. i know its tough but stand strong and push yourself..