Use to be so full of life, i was a dancer and a model. I was good in academics at school. Had the perfect life…. then everything just fell apart. We have just enough money for the basics. My parents are fighting everyday. is it wrong of me wishing they would just get a divorce already? My sister is smart- like really smart. And shes just the perfect daughter. My parents probably wish i was like her. no trouble, no worries, no party, no boys, no disappointment. ahhh how i wish i was maybe like her! and im so so so so mad at my parents… i am suppose to go tho university next year. but i cant! because my parents never made plans to save money for the costs. (and dont think im a ungrateful teen) They dont help me looking for scholarships. They dont even try anything. My dad just gets drunk home every night, and my mom is like a witch – moody as hell, ALWAYS! Its THEIR fault! my future looks bleak … and its THEIR fault. how do you tell a person who worked so hard to get into uni that she cant go anymore… cause you have to money!! pathetic much?? i mean its my future. Parents are suppose to want the best for their children… and everything thats wrong with me… started by them!! I cant even try to prevent it happening to my children someday, cause i cant to study that means i cant get a job with good money, that means im will shadow my parents lives…They treat me like im a dog or a object. hoping with time i will walk away or just vanish. Its painfull to see all my friends getting ready for uni (the time of their lifes) and me staying behind… watching them all leave to make their dreams come true. i guess i was a loser in high school so it wont be something new in the big world. once a loser, always a loser.
All this anger at my parents cause me to be really irritated and really mean to them. i cant help to think that its all their fault. im trying to see the good in this all but i cant. my family is no longer a family. its people who hates each other- living together… Why should this happen to me? maybe i deserve this… bad things happen to bad people i guess?
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Many students don’t have their schooling paid for them by others. I worked, got loans and managed to finish college while living on my own paying rent and bills with my 2 year old baby and no, the father wasn’t around to help. It was very hard, but you know what? It’s one of the few things that I’m actually proud of. YOU can do this too!!!