Hey,
I have been thinking about ending my life for over 10 years now, and I have decided that its really time to go. I’ve tried to make something of my life, even though I didn’t wanted to. I have had boyfriends, I pass my exams, I see my friends. But it gets harder and harder to act like I like my live. Nothing I try changes anything. There is nothing wrong with me, I know that, except that I just really hate life. I just don’t want to try anymore.
So I was thinking of drowning myself by anesthetizing myself with Chloroform and making sure that I faint face down in a river. I bought a bottle of Chloroform already on the Internet. But I’m scared that it wont work. I was wondering if anyone has heart about suicide cases with this method and could tell me about the outcomes. I just can’t risk failing, cause I would be sent to an institution. Than I would have to do my university year over  and everyone would know I tried to kill myself. It would make my life just more painful.
I feel like I have only one try left to get out of this life. I’m scared that if I survive this one, I will lose all hope of getting out. I already have the feeling that I won’t get rid of my life this easy, that I will have to sit it out until I die of old age. But I really can’t wait that long anymore. This time it really has to work, so please tell me if you know a successful case of this method.
I already thought about using Chloroform while hanging myself,but I would have to do that on a tree in a wood, and I don’t want to risk having a child to find me, so this method is not an option. I also thought about numbing myself just before falling of a big building, but there aren’t that much buildings of over 50m in my country were you just can walk in, open a window and jump out. No high bridges or mountains ether.
Please help me.
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I really dont wish anyone to kill themselves. I dont. But the way youre planning on doing it is way over thought and not effective enough. First, Im going to say this. Even though Im also thinking about the same thing, I do like to keep an open mind that things will get better. You also have to think of the friends you have. I would personally feel so bad if a friend of mine just took their life without allowing me to get a word in first. I would talk to someone (not a doctor) like a friend or someone close to you. If you cant get it past yourself to take your own life, however, Id hate for you to do something that would make you suffer or that has the possibility to fail. I recommend a gunshot. HOWEVER, please take my first advice. Think of the people in your life. Think of their confusion and pain. Talk to someone. Hoping for the best, but ultimately for your happiness.
I prefer hanging myself, it doesnt take more than 20 min for full body & brain death. I can find that period at midnight when kids r sleeping, they won’t discover till morning. Besides it doesnt leave a horrible scene after suicide for them.
ummmm yes it does actually….you don’t think seeing your mother hanging by a rope dead is a horrible scene?
Why hang yourself, life must seem bad now but trust me it will get better I’ve been in this place before and killing yourself don’t help nothing think about how bad your family would feel if you left this world. They need you here with them they love you don’t please don’t you even kill yourself. I’m sure your a wonderful person and somebody would love to have you (:
Please dont, look for life & love, look for new friends who care, share your problems. Give yourself another chance to find happiness. If u like to talk but not in public, i’ll listen & reply gladly;
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Reply please.
How old are you if I might ask?
If you don’t mind, send me an email at FLwaterguy99@gmail.com
I think we have a lot to talk about, really.
I respect and understand you, especially with the situation I am in.
I’ll await your email, please. 🙂
It depends on the age of the kid, PainNlife. If the kid is young, they probably won’t remember too much.
But then, it does depend on the kid itself.
her kids are young enough to be traumatized but old enough to remember ….I remember her saying their age a while back but I can’t remember how old they were
I didn’t post anything on this before, i don’t have any kids. What I meant was that I didn’t want to risk some kids finding me hanging in a forest. Forests are small in my country and they are mostly for children and dog walkers. And I can’t buy a gun either, it takes years of training before you get allowed to buy one here.
“I’m sure your a wonderful person and somebody would love to have you (:”
If all we can offer the desperate, are obvious lies and false hope…
Then we should prepare to accept their decision to exit.
The truth is that no one on this site, and no one who lacks personal, intimate knowledge of the person in question, can ever possibly know whether the person in question is “a wonderful person,” and no one can ever know whether “somebody would love to have you.”
Plus, all that is beside the point. It’s not about whether anyone is or isn’t a wonderful person, or whether anyone would love to have that person; it’s about whether that person wants to continue their life, despite the parts they don’t want to live with.
To generically and fantastically state things like the quote above, only exacerbates the problem. You’re lying, perhaps without even realizing it, and it’s obvious to the person who knows the contrary is true, or perhaps doesn’t even value those things you pretend to be so sure about. It just goes to show that “no one understands,” and those few exceptions who do, can’t, or won’t, do anything about it.
People like to “blame the victim,” and say things like “it’s up to you to change what’s wrong!” but it’s often impossible to change what’s wrong, when what’s really wrong is other people, and the choices they made, and the conditions they’ve imposed upon you. You can’t change what other people have done. You can’t control what others will do. You can’t change what’s wrong, when other people are determined, or simply carelessly causing, what is wrong. And sometimes, part of what’s wrong is the way the person is unable to cope with what cannot be changed or controlled. And if you can’t force yourself to cope with what cannot be controlled, then the only available alternative is to live unable to cope, and with the misery that often manifests from that inability to cope, combined with the common inability to change the past or control other people.
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