I’m shooting myself tomorrow. I love my life. I love my sister. It’s everything I could ever dream of, but I can’t sleep and I’m incredibly unhappy 🙁 I think of all of the opportunities I had to have a great love and be happy and I blew it. I wish I could blame my family situation, but who gets to do that? We dig our own graves, so to speak. I miss my mom though and I miss my family the way that they were. Â I’m not a teenager. I’m a single 27 year old female with a house, a profession, a college degree, and a sister. I’m done. I believe god will forgive me because of my mental illness. If not, and the case is that we just die, then that’s ok too because I’ll be out of pain. I wish we got do -overs. I love you my sister, mother, father, and brothers. I never could have seen myself in this position.
what is the best way to spend your morning before a suicide? I’m going to kill myself in bed and call the police just before to discover my body before my sister gets home.
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Please dont! live the rest years in happiness & spend your money in what u like. Your post is agonizing 🙁 , please mail me cause i want to talk to u;
goods_maker@yahoo.com
Please, i really care.
I know how it feels to be suicidal over your appearance. That is how I have felt for 20 years. You have more courage than I because I haven’t had the guts to pull the trigger after all this time. Maybe one day I’ll join you on the other side where hopefully we won’t have to worry about superficial things like how attractive we are to others.
What if you go to hell… It stops me.
if there is a heaven and hell. The devil does not judge you as much as god will. simply because he was a troubled soul his self. so i wouldnt be worried.
God will forgive but he won’t forget that tragic moment. Seeing your sister crying your family crying over your grave
Blessings.
Do something you love doing….eat your favorite food…watch your favorite movie….buy some good weed….just do whatever it is you love doing once more….as for the religious schmucks on this post? Ignore them….whatever you decide to do is between you and God…
Just do what you like doing and enjoy it one last time….although I would recommend committing suicide in another place besides your home as to prevent a spectacle around your house….try the woods or some secluded area….just to prevent your sister and family from having a chance at seeing your blood splatter and remains all around the room
whatever you decide to do….I hope you find the peace and relief you seek
‘I’m shooting myself tomorrow. I love my life.’
vs.
‘ I love my life. I love my sister. It’s everything I could ever dream of…’
???
Think it over again, your clearly don’t know what you want.
And maybe you will pass your mental illness to your sister, if she finds out you killed yourself. It’s incredibly unfair to her.
Suicide is only for people who have no loved ones. This is the reason why I don’t do it. I have no right to ruin other lives.
+ The Bible clearly says suicidal people all go to hell, for whatever reason they commit it. (Luckily I’m not religious :)) But christians say you have to take on the cross god gave to you.
What to do tomorrow morning? Here is the receipt:
1. Go jogging for at least 20 minutes.
2. Drink 2 bottles of multivitamin juice.
3. Listen to cheerful Latin music on Youtube at least half an hour.
4. See a comedy.
5. Take a sheet of paper, then write the following sentence 50 times: “I’m responsible for my sister and my family, and I won’t make them miserable for a life.”
Since now do that every morning till you die. (I do the same… really… except for the comedy… I have also somebody I can’t destroy with my suicide… so I fight because I can’t do anything else.)