I honestly don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I have a great family, several friends -an average life.
So why do I feel this bad about my life? Why do I think about suicide so many times a day? I’ve even planned my ‘dream suicide’.
I read everywhere about depresssion and the advice seems to be to talk to people about it. But I’m too shy to go to a doctor and too embaressed to tell my family or friends. They wouldn’t take me seriously anyway, they wouldn’t understand why I have such a want to die. I don’t even understand.
I’ve heard very few stories where people move on from depression and live a happy life. And these are always from successful well-known people with amazing talent anyway.
Have any ‘ordinary’ people actually completely moved on from this?
I just want to wake up dead tomorrow.
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The successful, well known people were ordinary prior to the break through, meaning that virtually all ‘ordinary’ people are dealing with these issues. The break through is not the attainment of success, since most of these non-ordinary people are also dealing with the attraction of death.
The break through is simply this: the willingness to take responsibility for all of the fear that bedevils them. Then they are no longer ordinary, whether their circumstances have changed or not.
GW. R u new? I’ve never seen you on here before today. Sorry to change subjects. I’m bout to comment. Just thought id ask
Sometimes I think it’s just part of a person to be suicidal. Because you are not the first person to have that story and still be suicidal. I have yet to figure out why. But ya intersting to me. But still, suicidal is suicidal no matter the reason or cause. It’s how you deal with it and wht you do.
That makes sense G.W. but I also meant that these successful people have special skills e.g. writing or acting and therefore had this to live for and to be happy for.
wishingthiswasover; I wish more people thought like that, part of the reason I don’t want to tell people I know is because they’ll think I’m exaggerating or trying to get attention as my life seems fine.