I have only 2 reasons I’ve been able to come up with.
1. I do love my family and some friends. I just can’t tell them that they are one of the two reasons I fight these thoughts every day. If I told them, they would surely think I was boasting, or attempting flattery.
2. My cats, who she and I both loved, would suffer. You may think this one is silly, but they were adopted by us, together, while she was still alive.
The question that runs through my head tonight, is how long those 2 things will be enough to stop me.
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You shouldn’t kill yourself because of someone, they would want you to go on with you your life, I know for experience. I attempted suicide everyday for 2 weeks after my girlfriend died. And its not stupid, our cat died shortly after she did, and I’m still upset. Think about it, everyone would be heartbroken if you attempted suicide. And if you don’t care about that, at least think it through, once you do it, there is no turning back.
I am so sorry you lost someone you loved. I share your love of cats. Perhaps they can help you through this horrible time. How long is up to you. There are no easy answers. But the fact that you posted is a positive sign. Once again, this must be a horrible time in your life. I’m so sorry you lost her. Would she want you to keep trying to live?
I often imagine the deaths of my family members and the effect it might have on me after the fact, but I never stop to consider the things in life that would keep me alive when they are gone.
I don’t think I would want a pet left behind to remind me of how fragile life can be, and the painful memories that would lock me in my cage, and keep me from being at peace.
Me and my wife have fish, hearty fish that will live a long long time, it’s what we share together. If she were to be gone I know for sure the fish wouldnt mean a damn to me without her. It would only remind me of her.
In a way.. I feel it’s best to keep animals out of a relationship all together. Having said that.. I started collecting exotic fish before I met her, to supplement the fact that I had no one at the time.
But wether adopting a pet as a couple or having one to yourself, it’s a constant reminder of what we don’t have in life, and never replaces the loss of some one we loved.