I could remember when my Mom first found out I had a cutting disorder. We were on vacation and my sister saw it so she told my mom. My mom pulled me to the side and all she said was “how could you do this to me” and that was the moment that I realized what I was doing. I still do it tho, just not on my arms. It made me sad that I was hurting the ones I love but at the same time I couldnt believe how selfish she was acting. She caught me twice and I have yet to receive medical help
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Within 48 hours of being put on medication my eyes lit up, I began seeing things clearly and I’m still improving. I don’t feel the slightest compulsion to gamble, I spend less time on here and the days pass like hours. There are many drugs out there that deal with addiction and they work. I’ve started taking pride in my appearance and it’s been years since I went around designer shops and things like that so getting treatment was the best thing.
I don’t get it with you people..Whats so wrong about cutting? You chose it, your body is coping, your mind is. Besides, i get really happy when i cut. And everybody is selfish, your mom is, i am. Who cares. Fuck living, die now.
Everythings wrong about cutting.
Hmm.. i personally love the rush when the blood flows. I like to cut in my dark room. So in fact im doing it right now. I feel nothing…but delight and power. I wish i had enough power to subdue someone and kill them, and get away with it. oh well just gona have to play with myself
Oops probably shouldn’t have said that
Oops probably shouldn’t have said that
Pull my cracker
That’s funny you say that, Timepiece, my antidepressant made me terribly unstable on top of my already festering, awful mood swings. There are so many different types of medication and everyone reacts differently to them I suppose. I’ve become much happier being off of it and my mood has plateaued for the time being.
I don’t see the issue with cutting either, it’s such a melodramatic act that people have convinced themselves is something worth pity and especially self pity. As long as you’re not cutting off your appendages, cut by all means. If it helps, why not? It won’t permanently affect you as long as you’re not cutting arteries. I’m guilty of taking part in the act of it as well in my past and I can understand how satisfying it is to take your frustration out on yourself. It’s a self destructive act, but when you’re depressed, what isn’t?
@SB: I only come on here for one other person. Would be two if you are interested in talking to me. I gave you my email address, but you never sent me a message *sob* LOL.
Hope you are good. You might not remember who I am hahaha!
Of course I remember you! You did give me your email, you’re right, I’m so sorry for not getting back to you, I’ve been busy lately and it slipped my mind, forgive me. We absolutely must talk more, you’re very intelligent, and I respect and admire that quality in a person. I’d love to have some more discussions with you and the rest.
I’m all for it. Do you have a preferred quicker method of chat other than here? Still have my email? As analytical as a lot of my brain is, I tend to let intuition guide my decisions about who I want to talk to. I’ve a thought in the back of my head for awhile that we should talk so it’s good I have the chance to make that clear.
My thing is, if you insist on cutting yourself, i think it’s a bit ridiculous to be surprised by the way people react to your scars. You know where scars come from. You know cutting yourself causes them. You know people react one way to “accident” scars, or “battle wounds,” and entirely differently to what is often readily observed as “self harm.”
How is anyone supposed to perceive a being that is consciously and intentionally destroying itself?
And if you have a problem with people reacting that way, why would you purposely scar yourself, and then complain that people act weird about your scars?
You’re causing your own problem, by making a non-trivial and non-essential choice. You don’t have to do it, but you are, and then lament the consequences. Don’t like the result? Stop choosing the cause!
I won’t deny that i’ve gone on a few self-destructive bents in my day… but at some point you realize that there is absolutely no need to damage yourself; just living life will do quite enough of that for you, without your permission, and you’ll be lucky just to stay healthy enough to even survive.
And i also agree with what SB said: “…it’s such a melodramatic act that people have convinced themselves is something worth pity and especially self pity.”
But at some point, you’ll encounter people who will have zero sympathy for someone who consciously chooses to intentionally damage themselves. “You did that to yourself.” Is what they’ll say. And if you’ll do that to yourself, what’s to stop them from thinking you might do something harmful to others? “Slippery slope.” It freaks people out, and they’ll want to distance themselves from you… but often not before criticizing your decision-making abilities and low self-worth.
I have a phone, but it’s incredibly slow and not a preferable method of communication. I do have a skype in case you were ever willing to have a verbal discussion and I have an ‘imessage’ that enables me to text other apple devices (I can’t help having one, iPods are just so dandy) I may shoot you an email by the end of today actually, just so you can have mine at hand at the very least
I have an iPhone. I haven’t used imessage yet but sure it is like other messaging and easy to figure out. I also Skype. Yeah that would be great if you send me an email. And no worries, I’m not one of those people who sends 10 emails when they haven’t heard back from the other person yet.
I can now recite a 10 digit number an hour later with minimal effort. Prior to that I could barely remember my own name. That’s the difference the drugs make and i’m nowhere near where I should be. I find I can sleep forever, there’s no wake-up switch. This time I haven’t gone over the top. I usually stop taking them but this time I feel different. Not working has made the difference. I have an addictive personality and by that I don’t mean people are susceptible to my charm. I get addicted to things. I believe that regardless of you partiality to the iniquitous pleasures of this world, the most effective way to treat any addiction is with pharmacology.
I do not do it for sympathy I do it because it makes me feel better. I see ur point that it’s no big deal and I don’t feel sorry for myself. I actually love to do it. I love the people who don’t care and realize that I’m a normal human being because people these days are just so melodramatic about it.