Im so close to just ending my life.. i cant stand it anymore. im always so sad. and i dont want to be. i wish i didnt have depression. i wish my life was perfect i wish i wasnt so fat.. why cant i be perfect? i dont understand. if there was a god then why is he letting me suffer like this? im so young and yet i want to die at a young age.
i just want the pain and suffering to end.
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Wishing doesn’t get you anywhere bro. You’re always sad because it’s easier to be sad. Having a good attitude and focusing on the positive is hard has fuck. You’ve been taking the easy route your whole life. Being sad and fat is almost second nature in this blind consuming country. Nobody’s life is perfect and everyone suffers. However some people make a choice to not let it consume them. Nothing good in life comes easy that’s why suicide is such a sexy option. That’s why I decided a long time ago I wanted to end my life. Apparently believing in something and being a spiritual /religious person is healthier than not believing in anything. Most religions have the goal of having followers that are mild, good natured, and happy. If you’re blaming god for your troubles then you clearly don’t understand how religion works or you’re not “fit†for it. Unless you have blind faith in god and that he will take care of you; then forget it. Don’t even bring up his name. There are millions of young kids that want to die. Some that are under the age of ten do kill themselves. You have two options. Either learn to control yourself and your emotions (you’re choosing to suffer) or end your life. Take the road that suits you best. If you’re not interested in what life has to offer then stop wasting resources.
@Conrad: So when someone expresses their feelings, and may not be thinking rationally, your advice is suck it up or go fucking kill yourself? “Suicide is a sexy option”? What a looooad of shit.
Sounds like you’d make a good prison guard: “Hey don’t like this dog shit we feed you, here’s some rope, go fucking hang yourself.” Hope you aren’t a regular commenter.
I suppose you think you are telling it like it is, right? Harsh reality. Maybe so, except your bullshit false dichotomy is likely a telling autobiography of what you were programmed to believe.
@jswissman†Sorry jswissman this is my way of trying to help. I understand my logic only makes sense to me. Don’t worry I’m not a regular commenter. I’m depressed and this might be an example of “depressed logic†yea my counselor doesn’t think my logic makes sense either. Sorry i’ll stop commenting.
Don’t be sad just because you’re fat. “Chubby Chasers” or “Whale hunters” go for the full figured types. If you wanna slim down start exercising and monitoring your diet. It actually works.
I used to be fat… i mean, really fat, obese in fact… exercise + dieting * 6 months = normal weight… it really works if you put your mind (and body) up to it.
Firstly, we’re exactly alike. Secondly, I’m wicked fat, and earlier in the year I started Weight Watchers and I lost 30 pounds; I stopped the program, and I’ve gained the 20 back. Some people are addicted to alcohol; I’m addicted to food. I can tell you from personal experience that while I was losing the weight, I was much happier than when I was gaining the weight. We both need to lose weight; it’s one of the best things we can do to make ourselves happy! I’m not sure what made you fat, but if it’s the comfort you get from eating, I understand how hard it is to give up food! I’ve got faith in you; don’t give up like I did… Easier said than done, I know! I wish you the very best!