Not nightmare last night. Tonight may be different. I’m expecting the voice nightmare to come and me wake up crying. An anxiety attack in my sleep I suppose. I’m not sure why it happens but it happens. Maybe some childhood event I’m traumatized by. I sometimes see a street, with a guy ona hydraulic lift. Hes scaling a tree, theres a chinese food store down the street. Then it suddenly turns into a new setting a brick wall. Brownish red with holes in it that arent reslly there. The holes look like passages like looking at an ant farm. I see weird shapes, sights forgotten just like any other dream. The voices echo in my head, words inaudible, but the tone recognizable. At least one female voice, one adult male the others an assortment. What does this dream mean? Why does it cause an uncontrollable panic?
i wish i could know, but it seems impossible to find out. Maybe hypnotism could work. My mother says its devil magic or demons ir some weird religious shit. Either way maybe they could make me see the dream and tell me after what I really saw. Hypnotists must be damn expensive especially if its for a mental condition i bet rather than parlor tricks.
Oh well I’m not sure what to do about ot. Time for a shower and then down this red bull and get ready for school. If problems mentally persist I’ll seek assistance from a psychologist or something.