Heres My life

Ok so ik when i say i wanna kill myself.. nobodies gonna say shit because im not important anymore. Nobody fucking cares about me except maybe one person and im loosing her to her boyfriend. She says i have a perfect life and nothing is wrong with it, thats because i dont tell her everything.
I cut myself, so deep i couldnt pay attention to anything but that during school, i cry myself to sleep.. Every night, i never knew my real dad and i got my two foster Brothers taken away from me, my step dad ruins my life, so i was thinking, if i were to kill myself i wouldnt really hurt anyone because nobody would even know im gone. but if i do kill myself, which i just might, my step dad cant ruin my life anymore and i would have no one calling me names and telling me im not depressed, its cuz i hide it, do you think i wanna sit in my desk and cry all day while everyone sits there looking at me, not really that would just make me want to kill myself even more.