Hi ok so idk why i feel like people cared more about me during school? Omg that sounds so narcissistic but i feel like i got more attention during school. Ah i hate saying that but its true and its sad that its true. That i simply don’t have happiness within myself but from attention of others.
And so now all my friends are doing there own thing which i think is great! i really do think its great but idk i just miss the attention ig. I miss feeling like people actually cared what i had to say. now i say something to someone and they just ignore me and talk abt themselves. when during school it wasn’t like that. i guess i have to get used to this because this is how life is. isn’t it?
i think life is like that. everyone is so worried about themselves they could give less of a shit of what you are doing? idk i guess i just feel like everyone is annoyed by me? or everyone is annoyed by me talking. because every time i talk i can tell no one cares. and even if they don’t mean it like that ik what they are thinking. i can tell.
i guess its just weird for me? which again super narcissistic of me to say. but whatever thats how i feel thats how my life is going currently.
a random update on my life because none of my friends seem to care. ive been working out lately. and it makes me feel a lot better because im finally doing something for myself. i also have been listening to emma chamberlains podcast. which is really good i highly recommend.
im just happy i found this website tbh. bc now i can let things go and no one is reading these most likely but i really don’t care. i used to write stuff down, print it out, and put it in an envelope in my drawer where no one could find it. and this is so much better of an outlet! so i hope everyone else on this website feels the same.
life is definitely not all sunshine and rainbows for ANYONE. no matter how good ur life is there is always something. and as human beings we just have to get used to that. i truly believe no one can live a only happy life. bc in my opinion thats boring. its fun to have some stuff going on not just sunshine and rainbows. and maybe people will disagree with me which is completely fineeee.
anyway that’s it for right now at least i might come back later to talk more.