I just feel so unhappy. I cannot help how IÂ feel and I believe that there’s no way I can get better. I feel I’ll always be messed up and I’m never ever going to get better. I do know a few people care about me, even if it’s a tiny amount but I feel if I leave where ever I go when I die I will be free and happy. I’ve got 3 and a half years and then I can start a new life but even if I make it I feel like I will be more messed up than I am now.
I can’t tell an adult how I feel, I don’t want my mum to know I feel like this and I know she’ll just brush it to the side.
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Of course your emotions are not within your control, don’t blame yourself for experiencing them. There are two factors at play which are perpetuating your feelings of depression and hopelessness. Obviously both of them stem from a form of conflict within your brain chemistry, but the reason for such are either caused by external factors/circumstantial variables or intrinsic brain chemistry dissonance. Your post is somewhat ambiguous and I can’t offer any advice if you don’t state why you’ve come to the conclusion that life will not get better. Life will only get better if you want it to get better. Perhaps you don’t, fine, that’s entirely up to you, you are in control of your life to that extent. If you don’t want to get better then no one can help you, although I’m not saying that this post was a cry for help, perhaps you are merely venting, I respect that too. I hope you do what’s best for you, good luck.
You don’t have to tell your mom anything, if you are still in education, you can speak to a counsellor at your school/college or go to a GP. They will talk through things with you and if necessary, re-direct you to a psychologist or a therapist. I am curruntly seeing a counsellor at my college, she’s a great woman, and I believe she will do whatever necessary to help me.
Before i went to see her i told my friends how i was feeling and even though they tried to be supportive, they didnt help me, they knew nothing about this disorder and advise to stay positive (if you can even class that as advide) isn’t helpful when you’re in such a terrible state. you dont have to tell anyone anything, go an see a professional instead.
genesis is right, you don’t have to tell your mom. You can tell your school counselor and they can help you.
I’d say don’t do anything too hasty. Life is much different when you have the freedom to do as you want. Move out one day and explore the world.