One last thing before you die.

what are the constraints on “anything?”

Surely this isn’t a “wide-open anything,” because that leaves room for all sorts of impossible things that can’t ever happen.

My first thought, though, was that i’d want to torture a specific person for an absurdly long time, and force them to watch the deaths of each of their family members. I really, /really/ hate that specific person, and that person totally deserves such hellish horrors.

My second thought, was something like “but why stop there?” Maybe my “anything” would be to cause the swift extinction of humanity. Imagine a future earth, abandoned skyscrapers wrapped in 100’s of years worth of unimpeded vine-growth, and wildlife cohabiting as they please.

My most realistic answer, though, would probably be “heroin.” If i’m dead i can’t become a junkie. I’ve always wondered how heroin feels; it must be “amazing.”

My best question-disrupting answer would be: “everything i ever wanted to do.” If only i could just… do everything i’ve ever wanted to do… maybe then i would think life is worth living.

I think the better question might be:

What CAN you do, before you die?

And of that, is there anything you want?

There’s lots of stuff i want(ed) to do before i die. But almost all of what i want(ed) to do, was impossible for me. From what i CAN still do, there really isn’t much else i want.

I suppose i could get an embarrassing and difficult job i don’t want, and work hard most of my waking life, for not enough money to do anything worth all that endurance and exertion… but i don’t really want to do that. I think i’ll pass.

At this point, i’m just procrastinating; i should be going through my belongings and discarding all non-essentials, and making preparations. But there are some rather daunting tasks to complete, and i’m not all that interested in completing them.