I don’t think I’ve attempted a single time since. These few years I’ve been working on me. Working and not much else. People say I’ve come a long way since years ago and that may be true but nothing has changed in my eyes. I have nothing to live for and nothing I’m passionate about. I don’t want to just live for me. Can’t seem to program my brain that way. I’m always so frustrated over the way I am as a person and can’t stand it. I don’t think I know who I am. I want things I can’t have. I care about things […]
NERVdamage
You ever feel like one?
What song(s) either describe you, how you feel, and/or makes you happy?
 and why?
For me to name a few,
Diluted (and) Everything Ends – Slipknot
Only – NIN
How To Dissapear Completely (and) Codex – Radiohead
After Hours – The Velvet Underground
I Hope You Suffer (and) This Time Imperfect – AFI
Parabol/Parabola – Tool
“So, if you’re frightened of dying and… and you’re holding on, you’ll see devils tearing your life away. But if you’ve made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth.” Jacob’s Ladder (film)
If you could do ANYTHING before dying, what would it be?
I know what I would do. I’m mainly curious to know other people’s choices/wishes for whoever is interested to share.
While my mind thinks all day constantly of my hell I can’t escape even at night while I sleep I still haunt myself. This causes me to wake up weaker then when I was born. Scared to death, overwhelming sense of feeling alone, picture clear images of past shit the moment I wake up, fresh as if they just happened. Cold sweat and never wanting to get up again until you have so much energy unless my depression keeps me down the restlessness leaves me no other choice but to wake up. Go threw the day only to eventually pass out again and go threw […]
Who here is thinking on trying again or commiting this weekend?
Does “suicide” really have to be a negitive and sad thing? To release one’s pain once and for all despite not being able to enjoy the pleasures of life should be something people should be able to agree and accept. At least eventually… Learn to realize to let go of the hardships of life can be a positive, accepting decision. To be able to move on for the good of yourself and everybody. Maybe it’s “we” as humanity force ourself’s to believe in suicide as bad, evil, wrong, disgraceful, and the “easy way out.”
Most of my life I was never a fan of myself and my life. Anxeity and depression secretly ruled it even beyond my own knowledge. 17 was the beginning of my downfall. Had little to no friends despite moving back to where I grew up. I changed for the worse… Couldn’t just be me. My friends wern’t interested in that person and I really don’t blame them. I couldn’t be me because I was too busy feeding what would eventually be my eating disorder. A girl I was getting close to changed when I admitted this to her. She never talked to me the same […]