I’ve actually been told that before, which is insane because Lightning is my favorite. And I know that’s lame because she’s the main character, but still >-<
Haha, thank you very much. It is me, I assure you, unfortunately. And yes. There are some very dark non-visible things overshadowing me. Props to you for having enough intelligence to realize that.
“more than half my age” could be anywhere from “barely too young,” to “infinity.”
@Falon:
I tend to appreciate the fact that aesthetics aren’t the only important part of life… but you do have a very nice face (from what i see in that picture…), which can be a very useful advantage… but can also cause problems which less-attractive people will never experience, while also facilitating benefits which will never become available to them. Anyway, i do realize that even the prettiest girls can hurt just like anyone else, and often for many of the same or similar reasons as the rest of us.
Still, i think you’re “lucky” to have such an apparent aesthetic advantage, even if it doesn’t stop you from having problems or feeling miserable.
Anyway, now that i’ve said so much about your appearance, i’m going to awkwardly slink away, and try not to second-guess myself too hard. 😛
Kieren Fallon messed up my 5 race accumulator. I can’t really say anymore because I might be done for libel (it’s been known to happen). Mr Fallon’s arms must have got tired when he was meant to push the horse out.
I got suspected you might be him and started plotting my revenge but now you’ve posted this a confrontation has been avoided.
As a matter of record, there are plenty of gorgeous women who are miserable and alone. One of the reasons is that very pretty young girls are often treated as solely objects of beauty, to the neglect of their other qualities (in addition to any physical abuse that might occur). It’s remarkable to read interviews with top models, who say that throughout their childhood and adolescence they felt ugly; I read that as a defense mechanism to deny that aspect of themselves — their physical beauty — that causes them so much psychic pain (since they’re just treated as pretty doll-like objects). (Although in some cases, it’s true that their physical beauty doesn’t manifest itself until later.)
Actually, that isn’t the case with me. I’m not treated as a pretty doll-like object. As a matter of fact, I haven’t a friend in the world. At school, I eat my lunch in a bathroom stall, alone. I haven’t had a “boyfriend” in seven months. I go to parties, by myself and proceed to stay alone throughout the night. I don’t want friends, nor do I want company in life. I am a very mean person. Unless I chose to let yo in my life, then that changes immensely and very quickly. I don’t know why people are so mean to me, but they are. I suppose it’s because I’ve shut everyone out for so long that they’ve given up on trying to get on, ehich I understand. But still, it hurts that they’d just give up.
No I was referring to Kieren Fallon the jockey. I’ve been hanging around here all this time waiting for him to show up. Jamie ‘frank’ Spencer is another one. Richard Hills has retired (thank goodness) but if I see him on here he’ll regret it.
Don’t eat your lunch in the bathroom. Hiding away is the worst thing to do. If you show it doesn’t bother you and have the confidence to retaliate things will turn around.
It’s not really about wanting their approval, but more about marking your territory (ie: your “personal space,” a ~6-foot bubble attached to your center…), and letting them know you’re willing to defend it, and go where you please, until they are forced to respect you enough to not violate your personal space, or interfere with your path through this bizarre and initially involuntary existence.
You don’t have to be mean to anyone, unless they “make you.” But if they cross that line and “make you,” then don’t hold back. Knock the piss out of the first person who tests that boundary, and that will serve as an example to others, most of whom will decline to risk that consequence.
Truly mean people don’t say things like that about themselves (see my comments about psychopaths having no capacity for introspection); they do harm to others without remorse.
I doubt you’re like that.
Express yourself in art and writing. You’ll have the rest of your life to live on your own terms. We all have a private life or a past that people don’t know about and generally wouldn’t care about. There is always someone out there with a similar experience which is why people on suicide sites are more understanding than people on sports forums.
Isolating yourself from unfavorable or displeasing environments/people, isn’t “mean.” Being arbitrarily cruel is mean. If you’re arbitrarily cruel to people who don’t deserve it, you should probably adjust that. But if you’re simply removing yourself from situations you find displeasing and uncomfortable… i don’t think you should hold that against yourself, or validate anyone else attempting to make you feel bad about your natural preference for self-preservation (even if through choosing solitude over unpleasant interaction).
1 You’re probably much more mature than the other kids at your school, who probably bore the shit out of you.
2 Perfect conditions for creating artistic — art, writing, music — material, as duke has suggested.
Do you have any idea of how many great artists went through similar things.
Do you like being alone ? When I was in high school, I used to spend an incredible amount of time alone (even though I’m a very sociable person — maybe I’m schizophrenic, who knows :-)), since I couldn’t find anyone else who was as interesting as I was. I quite enjoyed taking long walks alone.
I can’t take my eyes off of that clutter on the bed. No offense, but messiness is very off putting.
If I was your father, I would not allow you to leave the house until after you had folded those clothes/blankets/whatever and put them away. Tidiness is the first step towards achieving mental wellness.
Actually, I live with my mother and I just moved into this room, so I’ve yet organize my things. Thank you for the advice though. All I ever in life was to be bitched at about my messy room while I contemplate suicide.
No offense, that was just an observation.
Would you rather die in a tidy, organized room, or in a room that’s in a state of disarray?
(Rhetorical question).
actually, i think of messiness as a form of anti-obsessive-compulsion, and can often times be an outward manifestation of great creativity (look at the work rooms of great writers and artists)
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You somehow remind me of Lightning (main caracter) out of the Final Fantasy series
I’ve actually been told that before, which is insane because Lightning is my favorite. And I know that’s lame because she’s the main character, but still >-<
okay well, i know this is going to ruffle some feathers and probably upset someone, but…
the person in this picture is Hot.
I realize this is one picture, and there could be all sorts of scary stuff it doesn’t reveal, or isn’t even the person it claims to be…
But look at that. That’s a visually pleasing female in that picture, regardless of whatever else is or isn’t happening.
I can only deduce that there must be some non-visible issues that somehow overshadow this person’s aesthetic advantages.
Haha, thank you very much. It is me, I assure you, unfortunately. And yes. There are some very dark non-visible things overshadowing me. Props to you for having enough intelligence to realize that.
Dat feel when “visually pleasing female” is more than half your age…
But yes, much beauty, so wow 🙂
CORRECTION: “…less than half”. She’s 16.
I thought you said we were close in age?
@”TMS”:
“more than half my age” could be anywhere from “barely too young,” to “infinity.”
@Falon:
I tend to appreciate the fact that aesthetics aren’t the only important part of life… but you do have a very nice face (from what i see in that picture…), which can be a very useful advantage… but can also cause problems which less-attractive people will never experience, while also facilitating benefits which will never become available to them. Anyway, i do realize that even the prettiest girls can hurt just like anyone else, and often for many of the same or similar reasons as the rest of us.
Still, i think you’re “lucky” to have such an apparent aesthetic advantage, even if it doesn’t stop you from having problems or feeling miserable.
Anyway, now that i’ve said so much about your appearance, i’m going to awkwardly slink away, and try not to second-guess myself too hard. 😛
Kieren Fallon messed up my 5 race accumulator. I can’t really say anymore because I might be done for libel (it’s been known to happen). Mr Fallon’s arms must have got tired when he was meant to push the horse out.
I got suspected you might be him and started plotting my revenge but now you’ve posted this a confrontation has been avoided.
If by “Mr. Falon”, you mean a significant other, there is no Mr. Falon.
@duke: lol…
Well, from what I can tell, you appear to be female.
Indeed I am.
I was referencing clevername but alas DISREGARD.
I am twenty.
As a matter of record, there are plenty of gorgeous women who are miserable and alone. One of the reasons is that very pretty young girls are often treated as solely objects of beauty, to the neglect of their other qualities (in addition to any physical abuse that might occur). It’s remarkable to read interviews with top models, who say that throughout their childhood and adolescence they felt ugly; I read that as a defense mechanism to deny that aspect of themselves — their physical beauty — that causes them so much psychic pain (since they’re just treated as pretty doll-like objects). (Although in some cases, it’s true that their physical beauty doesn’t manifest itself until later.)
Actually, that isn’t the case with me. I’m not treated as a pretty doll-like object. As a matter of fact, I haven’t a friend in the world. At school, I eat my lunch in a bathroom stall, alone. I haven’t had a “boyfriend” in seven months. I go to parties, by myself and proceed to stay alone throughout the night. I don’t want friends, nor do I want company in life. I am a very mean person. Unless I chose to let yo in my life, then that changes immensely and very quickly. I don’t know why people are so mean to me, but they are. I suppose it’s because I’ve shut everyone out for so long that they’ve given up on trying to get on, ehich I understand. But still, it hurts that they’d just give up.
No I was referring to Kieren Fallon the jockey. I’ve been hanging around here all this time waiting for him to show up. Jamie ‘frank’ Spencer is another one. Richard Hills has retired (thank goodness) but if I see him on here he’ll regret it.
Don’t eat your lunch in the bathroom. Hiding away is the worst thing to do. If you show it doesn’t bother you and have the confidence to retaliate things will turn around.
That’s the thing though love, I haven’t a single urge to speak to any immature mundane child in that school.
^ i agree about the bathroom thing.
It’s not really about wanting their approval, but more about marking your territory (ie: your “personal space,” a ~6-foot bubble attached to your center…), and letting them know you’re willing to defend it, and go where you please, until they are forced to respect you enough to not violate your personal space, or interfere with your path through this bizarre and initially involuntary existence.
You don’t have to be mean to anyone, unless they “make you.” But if they cross that line and “make you,” then don’t hold back. Knock the piss out of the first person who tests that boundary, and that will serve as an example to others, most of whom will decline to risk that consequence.
> I am a very mean person.
Please elaborate.
Truly mean people don’t say things like that about themselves (see my comments about psychopaths having no capacity for introspection); they do harm to others without remorse.
I doubt you’re like that.
Well, no. When I say “mean”, I suppose I just mean isolate.
Express yourself in art and writing. You’ll have the rest of your life to live on your own terms. We all have a private life or a past that people don’t know about and generally wouldn’t care about. There is always someone out there with a similar experience which is why people on suicide sites are more understanding than people on sports forums.
Isolating yourself from unfavorable or displeasing environments/people, isn’t “mean.” Being arbitrarily cruel is mean. If you’re arbitrarily cruel to people who don’t deserve it, you should probably adjust that. But if you’re simply removing yourself from situations you find displeasing and uncomfortable… i don’t think you should hold that against yourself, or validate anyone else attempting to make you feel bad about your natural preference for self-preservation (even if through choosing solitude over unpleasant interaction).
So you like to isolate yourself:
1 You’re probably much more mature than the other kids at your school, who probably bore the shit out of you.
2 Perfect conditions for creating artistic — art, writing, music — material, as duke has suggested.
Do you have any idea of how many great artists went through similar things.
Do you like being alone ? When I was in high school, I used to spend an incredible amount of time alone (even though I’m a very sociable person — maybe I’m schizophrenic, who knows :-)), since I couldn’t find anyone else who was as interesting as I was. I quite enjoyed taking long walks alone.
Actually. That describes me almost precisely.
I KNEW it. How do you feel about cats?
So take long walks, do art — of any and all kinds — and you will have enriched the world with your artistic output.
Believe me, your carotid artery will always be there.
The world is waiting for your artistic masterpieces — don’t be selfish 🙂
p.s. I want a signed copy 🙂
I can’t take my eyes off of that clutter on the bed. No offense, but messiness is very off putting.
If I was your father, I would not allow you to leave the house until after you had folded those clothes/blankets/whatever and put them away. Tidiness is the first step towards achieving mental wellness.
Actually, I live with my mother and I just moved into this room, so I’ve yet organize my things. Thank you for the advice though. All I ever in life was to be bitched at about my messy room while I contemplate suicide.
No offense, that was just an observation.
Would you rather die in a tidy, organized room, or in a room that’s in a state of disarray?
(Rhetorical question).
oh god i can’t resist…
“Would you rather die in a tidy, organized room, or in a room that’s in a state of disarray?”
WHY NOT BOTH!? (lol)
actually, i think of messiness as a form of anti-obsessive-compulsion, and can often times be an outward manifestation of great creativity (look at the work rooms of great writers and artists)
>Would you rather die in a tidy, organized room, or in a room that’s in a state of disarray?
i’d rather not die, thank you
although as woody allen has put it, ‘eternal nothingness is ok, as long as you’re dressed for
it’