I’ve failed myself, once again.
Two weeks ago, I threw away my blades, and said “This time, I’m stopping”.
I didn’t cut for two weeks. I snapped bands against my wrists until my skin turned purple, and dug dents into my skin with my nails, but I didn’t cut.
I went to the store today and bought a new straight edge razor.
I cut myself.
I gave up.
I don’t think I can do this anymore…
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This doesn’t mean that you’Re a failure, it just means that you aren’T perfect. Hang in there and try to do something that you like today, it’s in the past, and today is a new day, forget what you did today/yesterday.
A minor step back is all this is. You have…relapsed before? Many others have as well, and many more will in time to come. But it is a necessary evil so that we may understand ourselves better, and plan accordingly for when we shall next attempt to recover.