Still In Love

Whenever i look around me, i see people smiling, people hugging, people caring about each other. i guess im just another stupid girl though. i fell in love with a boy who goes to the same school as me. i see him every day and it hurts me because im still tryin to get over him. he sees that im in pain but he goes on acting like nothign is wrong. i try to find the courage to talk to him but all i end up thinking about is death. i dont want to keep on with this pain. i want it to finish and end it all at once. i have friends but i dont think they really care about me. i see myself doing things that can kill me but i never do those things. i still love him but i can never seem to find a way to get over him. my mind is always on him. what should i do?