I can’t take it anymore

Why do so many bad things have to happen to me?  Just how much more am I expected to handle?  It’s not just one thing or ten things; it’s been so much more than that.  Part by part, my body is being destroyed.  I go to different practioners for help but they only wind up making me worse and have given me MORE health problems that I didn’t initially have.  I am 33 but have health problems of a 73 year old.  I am just fucked.

I now have problems with my both my legs, in addition to my original problems with my lungs, my heart, my nose, my hands and my colon.  Just WTF.

I can’t take it anymore.  Why not just kill me?  Why make me suffer more and more and more?

I have never known happiness or joy; my life has been wrought with pain and suffering ever since the day I was born- and I mean that literally.  I ask- why wasn’t I just aborted?  It would have prevented all these years of misery.