I am 19 and for the past 3 years I have felt like shit. I fell hopeless, unloved, unimportant, insignificant. I feel like nothing really matters. I feel like my life is directionless and has no meaning. I am in major pain. I have a low self esteem even though I have been told the opposite of what I think. I feel like people are lying to me. I make good grades in my college courses that I take. I still feel stupid. I feel unwanted. I have no friends and no boyfriend because I am introverted. I can’t seem to make myself feel better even though I try. I can’t enjoy the hobbies and things that are important to me as much as I used too, and sometimes I go through periods were I can’ t enjoy my hobbies at all. I can’t strum up any motivation. I want some advice any. I don’ t want to commit suicide. I want to feel better.
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Well I can definitely relate to this post. I’m 19 as well and I am in pretty much the same position you are, except for the good grades in college courses haha. I don’t ever want to do anything because I just don’t have the motivation, there seems to be no inspiration, no real reason, no point. It sucks because you know that most likely, things won’t get better unless you get motivated and start doing things, but you can’t bring yourself to do anything until things get better. A bad situation.
As far as advice goes, I’m no expert. All I can say is try and keep hope alive and try to push yourself forward even when there is absolutely nothing to motivate you. Because that increases the chances that things might someday actually get getter. If you can just bring yourself to try and push forward even when everything seems to want to hold you back. And like I always say, if you’re dead you’ll never know what could have been.
I emailed you.
Thanks for the advice the river. We should chat.
You didn’t make a statement of “I want to feel better” but I’ll take it as a statement anyway. Feeling better, in fact any kind of ‘feeling’ are mere chemical reactions/imbalances within in our body. I’m sure you’ve felt the usual suspects before: Happiness, sorrow, love, anger. But to feel ‘better’ may require any number of these feelings to achieve this feeling you’re after.
Indeed, I am “comfortably alone” as well and it has taken a significant toll on my personal social life, but I honestly do not care. The way I see it; if you can’t live with yourself, you cannot live with anyone else. Until such time I feel that I am truly comfortable within my own flesh and bones, I shall stay within the confines of my self-imposed isolation.
I am 20 years young so within your age group. I’m starting to think that being an introvert is en vogue with youths now. Well, the ones who are brave enough to venture on their own anyway. The path forward is entirely dependant on you, the decisions you make today will inform tomorrow and the coming future.
Have hope, be prepared to muck in, and best of luck with future endeavours.
Sure. Feel free to email me. Or leave yours and I’ll message you.
My email is theriver17312@yahoo.com btw.
Its simple just learn to laugh, joy is the most important and peace.
I will email you!