Really u think u got it sooo bad?

hey, at least you got a wife, twice. Clearly it’s not so bad for you, or you would never have been married. And not only did you manage that once, but twice!

part of it comes down to: “if i could access what so many (if not most) others take for granted, i would be relatively content.”

And then you’ve got people claiming to be “suicidal” just because they’re “afraid to live.” LIVING is the good part. But UNABLE to Live, is depressing.

Fear can be conquered pretty easily in most cases; all it takes is deciding you don’t want fear to stop you from doing what you want to do, and then confronting whatever you’re afraid of. Either you win or you don’t.

I’m not sure if i can interpret anything useful from that gibberish, but i think you asked “how do you justify being a sociopath?”

1) i’m not, so i’m not sure why you’re even mentioning that
2) if i were, i would not have to justify myself to you or anyone
3) i’m not sure who you’re talking to, or how sociopathy has anything to do with this thread.

Also:

Um, yes, almost everyone “watches people.” Look around. See those people? This is you watching them.

I fail to see how “watching people” is bad.

“I’m watching you…”

usually it’s because bad things happened in my life, because people didn’t value me enough to refrain from causing me problems, which caused me problems, which then made me upset and hurt in many ways for a very long time, which resulted in me being bitter.

Plus, i tell people when i think they’re wrong. I define this as a good thing, despite the fact that many reject it, or react defensively, even overreact sometimes.

tl;dr: i’m an unhappy person who tells people when they’re wrong.

Happy people are happy because things have gone well enough for them that they are able to enjoy what they appreciate, without too much of the bad stuff being in the way. Everyone seems to like those people, but not the people like me, for whom things have gone so wrong, in so many ways, to prevent me from being able to enjoy much of anything at all, despite my higher awareness and deeper appreciation of almost all things that can be perceived or experienced.

I don’t have the qualities or circumstances people like, so they treat me poorly, so i don’t always feel like being arbitrarily nice, or even fair. But it doesn’t even matter, really, because i’m not stopping anyone from anything they want. And yet, i’m the asshole? lol…

I’m one of the most fair, honest, reasonable, tolerant, accepting and forgiving people in the entire world. I’m not the best or the most of anything, but comparatively speaking, i’m pretty fucking far from being an “asshole.” I just can’t do the asshole character. It’s just not in my nature. Believe me, i’ve tried.

But just like anyone else, sometimes i get overwhelmed by frustration, and i might not be so pleasant to be around or interact with.

So what. Everyone has their moments. Mine are rarely anything to be concerned about.

thanks koji. I think you pretty much get it.