This world is a dreadful, putrid place, where parents destroy the hearts of children, babies are stolen and murdered, schools are shot to shit, people are belittled and berated, and innocent animals are tortured. I often ask myself what happened, why has the world come to this? And people don’t even take notice to the horrors of the world, it is like they are blind. They say ignorance is bliss and I suppose it is. I watch people and I think of squirrels, they run around so blissful and free, unaware of the impending doom of the approaching car. We are not blind. I have seen the most intelligent people conversing on this site, the same people who see the world as it really is and they are dubbed “crazy.” You aren’t crazy you are brilliant. Even though I have found a way to carry the burden this world has thrust upon my shoulders, I cannot ignore the decay of society. The world can rob me of many things, but it cannot take my love or my spirit. “Death is not life’s goal, only the end point. The goal is to live in a way that will make a life worth dying for. The one thing that cannot be taken from us as we reach the end of life is the love we give away.” – Forrest Church
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I agree wit u. I stumbled upon this site a few days back and was amazed by most of the posts…their quality in terms of knowledge and writing is brilliant. some of the posts are so much better than the pretentious, inflated stuff on the so-called famous literary blogs. I have been searching for the last few for someone to share this view with. I find these posts very authentic…true in their expression…in the sense tat they have been genuinely realized and then written. I thought of throwing some of them at my professors’ faces. hmmmm. Im sorry for giving unwelcomed opinion.
I dont see people here as crazy. I feel they are outsiders. in a good way. n they will always be outsiders. only they can see some things. life as it is.
Most opinions are welcome opinions. I like that… outsiders.
I had a similar argument with a loved one today. I was called mentally ill for stating that i don’t like how the world currently is and that everyone just seems to ignore it or not care in order to be happy or at least tolerate it. After a good while of talk this person admited that the world has gone ape-shit and that the best one can do is hang on to anything that helps them to endure it.
But out of the whole conversation the phrase “there’s nothing we can do about it” is what struck me. Heard it countless times before, but i was never expecting to hear it from this person (who is an optimistic, never giving up kind of person). After admitting it, this person cried a bit and then went on to find a distraction, while trying to forget the conversation.
What i’m getting at is that it’s no wonder people who sees things differently are considered crazy. Because if you were in a state of constant denial, resignation, or just trying your best to ignore things… would you stop to hear the point of view of someone else?. A point of view that rubs into your face what you are trying to constantly ignore?
M:
Exactly, ignorance is bliss. I sometimes wonder if I will be able to change anything, I know I will need help, but it’s worth a shot. Many others turn a blind eye and pretend that nothing is wrong. Well bullshit, things are terribly wrong and I’m tired of crying for the world’s pain. I will leave an imprint here, somehow. You can too, we all can.
My mom calls me mentally ill for saying I’d rather never lived and for saying that people should never bring babies into this world. My mom’s the blind one, not me. She thinks this is a nice world. Now tell me how can she look in my face (I am massively deformed) and tell me this world is a nice place? How can she imagine I am better off like this than before I was born when I was at peace (and that was the last time I had any peace). It’s because she refuses to see it. She gets caught up in her religious fantasy that everythings going to be perfect in the end. She’s never suffered anything serious. Maybe then she’d change her shortsighted mind. All my life I’ve asked her for one thing: Let Me Die. But she never loved me enough. She never loved me more than she loves this evil world. This world is good to it’s own. But it crushes the life out of those who can never belong to it.
You are correct about this life crushing those that can never belong to it. I’m not physically deformed like you, but I feel as though I don’t belong. I’m just basically a cancer, if you will. Darwinism. It’s not for me, this place. Let the masses take over. I lose.
@ Rach
I think your mom believes that she loves you so much that the world would not be so beautiful to her without you. I cried most of the day about how the world is. I told my son (who has been suicidal for a year) that if he left I was right behind him because I am not strong enough to live without him. Is that selfish or is it love? I really don’t know. I would walk through hell for him, I know that. I cannot pretend to understand how you feel, but I am full of sorrow over your situation. I hope that one day this life will find a way to bring you happiness.