I got over most of my suicidal feelings, I haven’t cut in a couple months… But for some reason now, I feel like cutting is something I should do. I’ve been tempted in the past few weeks to grab a razorblade and just play with it on my wrist, leg, arm…whatever grabs my fancy. It almost feels like it should become a part of me and that I shouldn’t deny that… the only thing that is currently keeping me from fiddling around with the idea is the fact that my boyfriend will take me on a date if I keep myself under control and that there will be a new Owl City song/album “soon”….
Truth be told, if it wasn’t for that music, I’d be long gone…