Tomorrow morning, the morning of 29/04/2014, I will wake up for the last time. I’m going to make sure my family are at work and school, and the I am going to give myself CO poisoning. For the first time in 8 months I am happy, because I know that before mid day I will be dead and at peace forever. I couldn’t bring myself to write a note to my family, I doubt anything I could say would assuage their guilt and sorrow but I hope that one day they will realise that some people don’t want to live and that trying to make me live for their sake isn’t fair. Death is all I have ever wanted since I was ten, tomorrow I will finally have it. Issie, you are the love of my life. Please don’t blame yourself.
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Well I hope things go the way you want it.
if that is what you want then good luck to you.
im curious how old are you?
If that’s what you really want and will give you peace good luck with it. If you are not really sure i’d say reconsider it. You have to be very careful about the planning too.. if you are found or do it incorrectly, CO can give you brain damage.
It is and I have. And if this fails and I’m hospitalised I’ll just blow an air bubble down my IV
21.
You’re about my age. I can say I’ve got one foot in the grave right now too.
I’m going to pray for you. I don’t know if you’re religious or not, but I’ll still pray. Maybe you’ll change your mind. And if not, I hope you make your way to heaven.
Everyone says, “I’ll finally be at peace.” How do you know this? What if this life is more peace than what’s on the other side? That would be ironic.
Not interested in half baked philosophy bud. Just want to die
My son gave me his noose last night. If I had found my son dead I would have taken him down and hung myself with the same rope so we could be buried together. Thank God he reconsidered, I love him so much. I feel terrible for your family. If you are really determined to do this do not do it where your family would find you. It wouldn’t be fair, and it would be quite selfish; if you don’t want them to be that way then you shouldn’t either. Aside from that it saddens me that you are so young and have resolved yourself to ending your life, but as you go please think of the love that you have had during your time here. I always wanted to leave the world filled with thoughts of love rather than despair.
Are you still here? If you are please post something so we know you’re “ok.”