It just hurts so much.
Everywhere I go, anything I do, I think of you. And then I think of how you don’t want me.
I don’t even know why. We were so happy.
It hurts too much.
The pills blur the pain but I know its there.
I can’t live this way.
It hurts.
My life is empty without you. It was going to be even before you, but now there’s no chance.
I just want to go back. I don’t know how we ended up here but I need you. I miss you.
I feel like I don’t stand a chance but I have no other choice but to try. You’re too important.
And then if not…. What else is there? It’s all so void… It fills me with dread the minute I wake up. I hate waking up.
It hurts so fucking much and you promised I never would…
I need an end.
It’s got to end.