The problem is if I knew what was causing me anger and sadness (besides the obvious display of depression) I would try to resolve it. Some things in my life I can’t resolve, which I’ve accepted and slowly have begun to move on, but still.
This is why I’m back in therapy for the 6th time lol
Relief would be nice yes, but I guess what I really want out of life is to be content. And I don’t know why I feel like I don’t deserve it. Maybe it’s the depression talking again.
Shut up brain! And too, my new meds are making me fuzzy lol.
No I am angry, and I know there has to be a reason that’s deeply rooted in the pit of my being and that’s why I don’t know why I’m angry. I have to find the reason and then find a solution.
Which requires therapy, therapy, and more therapy. I try not to go too deep within, because then I find reasons why I need to punish myself and then I end up cutting in order to punish myself, which is totally irrational and completely idiotic on my part.
Even my therapist had said that she’s glad I’m aware of all this because half her clients aren’t aware of their feelings. It kind of makes me wish I wasn’t so aware. Ignorance is bliss.
Ugh, fucking psychology and the human brain. Too complex yet strangely beautiful.
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I asked my therapist a similar question. No easy answer. 🙁
Your imbalanced in probably multiple ways. That’s the simple nutshell answer. Balance is all.
Because youtube links don’t seem to function correctly on SP, that makes anyone’s mood fluctuate like crazy.
Yeah, unbalanced. That’s a good word. Now how do I find balance? Maybe I’ll ask my therapist that.
I think I fixed the link lol, sorry about that guys.
resolve what’s causing you so much anger and sadness that it blocks your attempts to be happy.
Then, be happy sometimes. But that won’t mean zero anger and zero sadness.
Let me tell you a secret. Happiness is simply relief.
Money can’t buy happiness because money doesn’t necessarily relieve people of whatever is imbalanced.
Relief isn’t pleasure like drugs but a lack of both pleasure and pain.
Like being full when hungry, the hunger is relieved and the the weight lifted.
Drugged out idiot, that makes no god damn sense. See see…clouds nothing but clouds Lol
The problem is if I knew what was causing me anger and sadness (besides the obvious display of depression) I would try to resolve it. Some things in my life I can’t resolve, which I’ve accepted and slowly have begun to move on, but still.
This is why I’m back in therapy for the 6th time lol
You aren’t happy because your so hungry.
I am hungry actually, lol.
Relief would be nice yes, but I guess what I really want out of life is to be content. And I don’t know why I feel like I don’t deserve it. Maybe it’s the depression talking again.
Shut up brain! And too, my new meds are making me fuzzy lol.
If you don’t know why you’re angry… then are you really angry? Is it legitimate anger or just neurosis? (same for sadness)
Spend time alone, journey within, figure it out.
No I am angry, and I know there has to be a reason that’s deeply rooted in the pit of my being and that’s why I don’t know why I’m angry. I have to find the reason and then find a solution.
Which requires therapy, therapy, and more therapy. I try not to go too deep within, because then I find reasons why I need to punish myself and then I end up cutting in order to punish myself, which is totally irrational and completely idiotic on my part.
Even my therapist had said that she’s glad I’m aware of all this because half her clients aren’t aware of their feelings. It kind of makes me wish I wasn’t so aware. Ignorance is bliss.
Ugh, fucking psychology and the human brain. Too complex yet strangely beautiful.