I don’t know how to get through the rest of the day.
There is no happiness when your life is bare of family and love.
I look for a purpose to go on living.
I find none.
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I am in the same situation. I don’t know how to be happy. I don’t know how to keep myself alive. I can’t stop drinking either. I don’t know why I do it anyway.
I can totally emphasize. I´m very sorry you´re feeling that way. I´ve been looking for a purpose to live since as long as I can remember it. And I find none, I have no fucking idea what to do in my life. Is like somehow I can see it there´s no such thing as happiness for me. Completely nothing.
I don’t know how to be happy either. As a matter of fact my favorite teacher once said that with so many talents I have no talent for happiness. I don’t agree with the first part at all, but I completely agree with the second part. Even when something really good happens, I think “Well, now it’s over. What will be the next bad thing that is going to happen?” And I am terrified. I am afraid of happiness anyway because I am afraid it will be taken away from me once I have it.
On the talents front, I get it. I create, get praise and swear I didn’t deserve it, then cast my work off as shit.
I put everything into what I do and soon it means nothing to me. So I, like Death Greeter, cannot sustain a purpose.
I mean we all just die and fade into non existence anyway. At some point it will be indefinitely hopless and pointless as it all fades anyway. This life is so temporal. We work so hard just to give it up anyway. Where is the hope in that? Why try anyway?
I think that abused children like many here (including myself) have a lower self-esteem as adults so they are not able to see their own talents.
Oh. I haven’t really thought of it like that. That is bitingly sad.