Crazy?

People get upset when things don’t go their way.But I doubt they feel like I do.Call me a drama queen I don’t care.It’s not all the times, for example once in school a girl wouldn’t shut up and I just wanted to get up and punch her.Other times my parents don’t let me go out while other parents let their children go and they come home til the next day.I feel trapped in my house,even in my room I feel like i have no freedom.I feel like jumping out a window or just running away.I can’t relay on Doctors,family, friends no one to help me. Doctors say I’m depressed which I doubt.Parents say I make it up,My friends don’t care.If no one cared before why would they care now.I keep all these emotions inside of me.i want to scream and run.I take out my anger on anyone who’s in my way.I can’t control myself I’m like a wild animal or something.What is it? Anxiety,depression,mentality? Who can I talk to?What should I do? I have lost faith in myself. I stop and think about all the people that have a disability or something and how they manage.I admit I am very selfish I just feel like disappearing one day not tell anyone.But  then again at least someone will be happy.If I die they can have some part of my body or whatever.I do want to have a family with my boyfriend,but what will I tell my kids when they see my scars… I made mistakes before.I’m human we all do mistakes but can this be my biggest mistake?