I’m trying to cut ties from those who are trying to get close to me. I already have many relatives to mourn for me, but I’d rather not bring outsiders heartache when I free myself. It sounds selfish and heartless, but the pain I feel in my heart gets heavier each passing day. It makes more sense to isolate this pain in one specific group rather than have it explode out of proportion, even though that may happen anyway.
I live alone in my mind with my demons and I’m doing a pretty good job keeping them entertained. They shouldn’t know about these inhabitants, they will ask questions, questions that lead to motive, to guidance, to control. It will end up in a neverending cycle of escape and capture. Instead of being controlled by someone else, I’d rather stay confined to the prison of my mind.
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I’m on your boat.
Same situation, i didn’t want people around me because i don’t know how much more i’ll endure. It surprised me that it’s easier than it looks tho… don’t know about others, but for me all it took was to stay at home for some months and close all social media accounts and that was it. SP and netflix are most of my world now, lol.