I need a break from this loneliness that is consuming me so quickly…
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Granted your on SP, I suppose you might find a bit of solace to your ailment from the kind folk here despite their only medium be of the virtual kind.
Then again….. Is SP truly a place to seek camaraderie?
Yeah, but it’s just a place to vent, you know. I realized I fuck everyone’s life up, so I’m meant to be departed from people for the sake of others. And not everyone is meant to be lonely. I’m just saying, that’s how things roll for me.
“Place to vent” <— I got you on that.
Hmmm… I would question the second sentence of your reply a bit more but I fear I would not receive an answer so I will leave it at that. But it has been acknowledged regardless.
If you want someone to talk to, I’m here. I refuse to believe that anyone is meant to be lonely. Plus, seeing as how I’m mainly friendless, we can be lonely together. Let’s hang out. I promise you won’t fuck up my life.
It may not be the best place to seek camaraderie, but I’ve found some of the nicest and most understanding people here. I email one person I met here regularly and talk with the night crowd (well, it’s almost midnight here) through till morning. They are all that are that’s getting me through right now. As I’m slowly heading toward death, I couldn’t imagine better people to be around.
Hey, the late night crowd isn’t bad. Soon be midnight here as well. Well, it’s this time here but it could be six am for others elsewhere. I have definitely come across the most understanding and comforting people here. Then I feel bad because I say I have nobody and nobody cares and I’m oh so lonely when it’s just that it’s me pushing those people out and how they must feel. But hey, it’s for a reason. A damn good one.
I really like the night crowd. It’s mostly Aussies and New Zealanders half a world away but I really appreciate them.
I know there are people who care, but I just don’t feel like I belong out in the world. Every time I try, I feel worse.
Last week I went out and emailed my friend from SP and she was happy I was trying. I got through it, but only because I was glad she was happy about something and I couldn’t take that away from her. She’s so nice and thoughtful…
Being out was rough though. I wanted to run out in the street and get hit by a car.
StruggleOn,
Tell me a story, I will keep you company!