bullshit

I’m tired these muscles spasms n my anxiety makes it worse I feel like dying every day I want this pain to end my whole.body hurts I’m everything I do to make myself relax n try n get better it sucks nothing help pills or cream or this pain it feels like my body is going hunchback n shit it really hurts n want to get surgery but doctor needs more info from.my scans I have to take n I can’t stand still arm muscles feel so bad I’m getting worse I’m.any better I want  stop this I’m hopeless can I call it quits I feel like I may have turned some of my bones n muscles inside out I just don’t now whether if I want to continue on I have my friends n family but they can only help so much =( all the time I cry a little before bed cause it feels horrible being in so pain I just don’t know anymore my life tiresome