A place where the suffering people ,like us,can live and try to find understanding and support amongst our own. If I dont go SOMEWHERE,ill die soon.. YES,it seems unwise,I suppose ,to draw all the walking wounded mentally ill and despairing desperate together into one place—,but isn’t the loneliness and pain already unbearable and are not many among us already taking extremely risky and reckless chances to attempt to kill th pain? What if we could make a pilgrimage to our very own monument- a monument to outrage,and sadness,and despair.It would be a monument to express ALL the MANY Reasons we are suicidal and suffering.What if we created this thing…and then made a place to live and love one another for these very reasons. Helping one another is th very thing that can potentially grant us a desire to live..We could be in a place that has a beautiful view-a mountain vista(Canada?) or a very long waterfall accessible(perhaps central or south America?) Somewher to step off and end the suffering: alone or among others ,or to find reprieve from the suffering…we are doomed by our refusal or seeming inability to change our way of thinking and living ..im fucking paralyzed here…yet I am desperate to give and receive love,affection,hope despite the abyss of the Event Horizon literally within my arms reach.Once passed,I wont be able to get back,you see? Does anyone feel the possibilities of this? We could create a society -one unlike any other…No,not Jonestown and koolaid…something much better.No would be gurus enslaving the weak and sad…
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you are a great visual writer. this is fantastic! I’ve thought so many of times of just leaving everything… everything and starting over in some far away land. Somewhere no one here will ever find me, somewhere where no one knows me. But sadly enough, my mental illness is inside of me, so there’s no leaving that behind.
Who says there is no reprieve from sadness or madness? Doctors? Yes,ive seen a hundred doctors-the most help ive gotten from them was temporary relief from th antidepressants or oblivion from all the wonderful benzodiazepines…painkillers…they are not the all knowing experts of everything..Even if you remained emotionally disturbed,would it not be better to be with people who understand you? Being misunderstood has been so fucking painful to me.Being marginalized and misunderstood and finally disregarded by those I love …..it just kills me
Personally, I like Iceland, just because there are some isolated little towns there, and I like the colourful little houses of the Nordic regions. Of course, it may be too cold and volcanic there for some, plus I don’t think Iceland’s government would like us going there and saying, “This is our land now.” It’s too imperialistic, but it sure worked well for America!
I’ve had dreams about starting a micro-nation, but I’m honestly not hopeful that it would stay a good country as time advanced. A country is all about its people, and over time, the people might become assholes, much like the (insert nationality here).
Very valid concerns,and you are very likely to be correct about the assholes ruining it….they always do. Iceland is so beautiful! Probably too cold to be welcoming to many people…i had a utopian vision of like…..The Beach-lol-(recall this film?with Leo DiCaprio) wouldn’t tht be awesome…but seriously, Canada is also long cold winters,and this will make it difficult to grow things..but central and south America has lots of possibilities for living well-climate wise,and accessibility to ocean and fresh water,too..the problem is the need for an arsenal in case of murderous cocaine cartels showing up to party..kno what I mean?
Anywhere that’s typically cold and cloudy I’m down. Although on occasion the beach is amazing. It sure would be nice to not live in the systematic society we have and have another place to get away from it. Sure would make me want to kill myself a little less. But man does death sound sweet.
Yes,I agree that it would be a relief,but what if we got well from being away from the swirling vortex of fuckall that is our society ..what if we found real meaning in living in a way that is supportive and collective,and surrounded by the most uplifting natural splendor? We might have a chance there. Theres little chance to get well for a lot of us in the environments we dwell in…
Myu isn’t too fond of the beach/ocean… not even the sun.
Anyway, nice idea Misanthrope.
But where would be the most beautiful AND practical place to consider? Too cold is unpleasant for a lot of people.I would say Alaska if it were possible to survive th winters with comfort-and be mostly self sufficient….its so beautiful..beautiful environments are immensely soothing and healing to a wracked and suffering soul.
Personally….someplace with enough shade for me to avoid tanning — I’m obsessed with being pale — or I could just stroll along our sanctuary (wherever that may be) with a parasol in hand. (^^) Un.
You have a penchant for making a dramatic scene out of an unremarkable set of conditions…or at the least,you bring a dramatic presence …have you ever considered acting…..Certainly,there would be shade..and a covered outdoor area with fire pits and places to sit in groups..I imagine we will have poetry readings…music,singing,drums…dramatic scenes acted out ,of things (moments of hurt,abuse,heartbreak,loss,trauma)that NEED to be witnessed and fully heard and acknowledged by other people in order to be exorcised or just soothed if exorcism is not possible. We are many of us very gifted and creative and these things can be therapeutic as well as just beautiful…ART for the sake of ART…and those who do not express their selves or their pain in any of these ways,will be heard and supported in the best way for them….but we all need to be heard,and acknowledged,and to have our feelings validated…It fucking hurts to be misunderstood or unheard.
And I meant that in a sincere and kind way-you’ve a very interesting personality,MMM…I admire the way you can paint a scene with one sentence..
our very own Zion, the mormons are on to something…
Those incorrigible fundamentalists with their silly polygamy and caches of weapons and sealed compounds:):):) What a fun bunch they are!! JK,but yes-a separatist compound of sorts …prob dont need fences,though..guess its not a compound without them…
Also-we would have an infinitely higher chance of being unaffected and unexposed when Ebola makes the mutation jump and the zombie apocalypse begins:)
Much of myself (my life) is just wasted/unrealized potential. :\
If this vision of yours were to somehow become possible, that’d be amazing.
I like you Misanthrope, I like nice people. And thank you. :3
It’s funny that my abbreviated username is “MMM”…
I think everyone here probably fits the wasted/unrealized potential description. It’s hard to be all you can with the weight of some of these thoughts around your neck. It’s hard to even stand up sometimes…