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Am I going to hell?

by jrmeador94 2/23/2016

written by jrmeador94

I had everything going for me before college. I grew up in a great family, we loved each other, and I had an awesome relationship with God. Seriously, he was my best friend. One of the things I couldn’t understand, though, was grace. How the hell could he put the sins of nations onto one man and just forget what we’ve done?

Im in college now. I wanted to die 5 times in the last 2 years. I just couldn’t make the pain stop. So I let go of my faith in God. I don’t really care about sin, being reckless, or being happy. The only […]

2/23/2016 9 comments

Losing yourself

by Rotted_Flesh 9/5/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

There was a time when I was fairly content with life. Took a lot of things for granted, things I should’ve cherished but instead just let them pass me by. I let myself just dwindle, sliding down further without me even knowing it. I wish there was a way I could go back in time and tell my reckless, dumb self to be more wary and careful. This all stemmed from me never looking at myself with love, I always thought I had to prove something, to be someone I was never meant to be. I should’ve just accepted who I was. If life presents […]

9/5/2015 1 comment

Dialogue

by Good Adjective 4/17/2015

written by Good Adjective

From a certain light I can imagine the numbness – the nothingness – as being peaceful. Relaxing almost. But in reality that’s not the case, you all know that’s not the case. Because when you’re in that state of mind, you are trapped between 4 walls that are closing in around you. At least that’s how it feels. Time passes and soon enough you’ll have to leave the (dis)comfort of your own bed, and go to work, school or university and pretend to be a civilised human being. Pretend that you aren’t entertaining those darker thoughts during every pause or break in your day. Pretend […]

4/17/2015 1 comment

Middle Child

by whereisgod123 10/12/2014

written by whereisgod123

people in school thinks im the happiest girl in the world, but honestly, i am not. at home, i am the reckless one. i have 4 siblings. i’m the middle child. all of them feels so loved and appreciated while im here picking up all the hand me downs and the things left for me. i am always the “target” of my mom. when my big brother fails a quiz, she doesn’t get mad at him, but instead she supports him and allow him to party anytime he wants and gives him anything he wants. same goes to my sister and brothers. me? she scolds […]

10/12/2014 2 comments

can we find a place to be together

by misanthrope 8/22/2014

written by misanthrope

A place where the suffering people ,like us,can live and try to find understanding and support amongst our own. If I dont go SOMEWHERE,ill die soon.. YES,it seems unwise,I suppose ,to draw all the walking wounded mentally ill and despairing desperate together into one place—,but isn’t the loneliness and pain already unbearable and are not many among us already taking extremely risky and reckless chances to attempt to kill th pain? What if we could make a pilgrimage to our very own monument- a monument to outrage,and sadness,and despair.It would be a monument to express ALL the MANY Reasons we are suicidal and suffering.What if […]

8/22/2014 16 comments

Shoegaze O.D.

by misanthrope 7/30/2014

written by misanthrope

A child alive,happy

A beautiful child to love

A child corrupt,in tiny increments

What made her trample childhood

She tore it from herself ,it was constricting

She threw it away,then came back to burn it

Be Gone forever,for no good reason

She broke their hearts,she broke the window

She fled their eyes,their words,their love

She cut herself on the shattered glass,stepping through

The first cut of thousands to come,she glanced back

Her childhood still smouldering ruin,she ran into night

Trailing disregard ,reckless abandonment

Her first victim,her favorite victim

Herself

7/30/2014 4 comments

Someone Who Understands, Save Me From My Despair

by BoyofChagrin 7/13/2014

written by BoyofChagrin

Only 17 years old and I have so much to say and I would never be able to remember it all to write it down at once. I don’t understand the purpose of our species, we are reckless and materialistic. The closest people to me don’t even know that I think of suicide nearly every night, I go to work and wonder if the people I work with can even sense that I hate life. I’ve been thinking about it for years, and i remember being younger and trying to hold my breath until I died underwater but obviously that doesn’t work. I’ve pondered the […]

7/13/2014 9 comments

deterioration

by sophie 4/25/2014

written by sophie

I have this wild urge to drop everything to move away and be a stripper in a big city.
Is that considered reckless behavior? or reckless thinking in this case?
I’m almost drawing up a game plan here to leave this winter.

I’ll end up destroying myself.. I can feel it

4/25/2014 23 comments

Song 2

by KIRA 3/28/2014

written by KIRA

When I’m sad or angry I usually hear to my favorite songs in my room, and I cry a lot.Each one means something to me (please don’t judge me for my preferences)

Safe and sound – Taylor Swift
I knew you were trouble – Taylor Swift
You make me wanna die – The pretty reckless
My medicine – The pretty reckless
Kill me – The pretty reckless
Miss nothing – The pretty reckless
Recharge e revolt – The raveonettes
I hate everything about you – Three days grace
Back to black – Amy winehouse
Stronger than me – Amy winehouse
Wake up alone – Amy winehouse

3/28/2014 7 comments

Pathetic

by Greenz 2/17/2014

written by Greenz

I just sent an e-mail to a site that (supposedly) does contract killing.
Yep.
They’ll hopefully kill me (I haven’t received a response yet) and then they can do whatever the fuck they want with my shit. Sell it, break it, donate it, I don’t give a fuck.

Pathetic, can’t even kill myself. Need to hire it out. Oh well. Hopefully they’ll get back to me and this will end quickly. If they’ll even do it. If this is even a real site and not someone trying to be funny.
This is terribly reckless. And I find myself not caring.

See y’all on the other side, if […]

2/17/2014 4 comments

I’m not suicidal anymore

by Shaynax 2/9/2014

written by Shaynax

I just miss and crave the not so occasional drinks that would lead to reckless behavior because at this moment when I want to feel something I can’t bring myself to do anything about it. I’m not suicidal but I know that what I am feeling leads up to it. And no one can know. Everyone had their life together again but me. I feel so alone. I literally don’t feel like I belong in my own skin. I don’t like anything that I am right now or have become these past few months.

2/9/2014 3 comments

Lose Yourself. Immerse Yourself.

by The Distress 1/23/2014

written by The Distress

“I’m God Mode. Nothing can hurt me. I will always win. Sure, give me a hit, let’s do it. I’m down for anything, I don’t give a FUCK. I will ALWAYS win.”
“Because I got fired, right? Oh, it didn’t work out? Shit, nothing matters. Nothing means anything anyways. What’s the point? Today I’ll be invincible.”

Do you ever feel that way? Like, let’s be reckless and careless because, hey, we know we’re going to be dead in a few days anyways so who cares? Let’s run away, spend all our money, travel the country, and when we’re dead broke after our travels, we […]

1/23/2014 5 comments

Vicious Cycle

by darksky21 4/5/2013

written by darksky21

I come here tonight to freely express my feelings and thoughts without the fear of being judged and with the hope that someone out there may understand. Okay ….let’s be honest, there’s still a shit load of fear, but I say fuck it.

I’m still having quite a rough time. My depression is weighing heavy in my head. Can barely lift it up. My isolation is at an all time high. The majority of my Â “friends” are occupied anyway. I don’t feel like I have any true friends. But I’m sure my isolation had a big part in that. I just have no drive. I’m afraid […]

4/5/2013 1 comment