I tried to commit suicide for the third time on Friday 15th August 2014.. I took 36 quetiapine and it obviously didn’t work because I’m here to tell the tale. I was admitted into newbridge house mental health unit where i was sectioned and I discharged myself yesterday afternoon as soon as I was taken off the section.. I am currently under home treatment and they put up the dosage of my medication.. What I’m trying to say is that I never stop thinking about wanting to die.. Or should I say I’m told to die.. In my head I never hear ‘I’ want to die its always ‘you’ deserve to die.. I know one day I will do it right and I can’t wait for the day I leave this earth I’m just sick of being here. Breathing and crying when I wake up every morning purely because I’m still here.. Will I ever live a normal life? Or will I always feel this way?