Interesting thought. I spent most of my life withdrawing from people and I always believed I was a hermit at heart. But All I was doing was avoiding pain. Later in life when I could be truly alone as I always thought I wanted to be I stupidly let another woman into my heart and set up the biggest train wreck of all time. I am still very much the “fly on the wall” even in a crowded room but I suck at being alone. I panic when faced with other people and I panic when I face being alone.
I guess I’m just a confused pile of old rotting debris. A bullet in the head sure seems like a good idea these days. Sedation is my best friend.
me too, but somehow pain still seems to find its way. sedation definetly i know its wrong but i take sleeping pills even during the day. makes me feel like a zombie and totally away from everything.
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Agreed :l
I’m the other way around.
yeah i just can’t stand being with other people. i get panic attacks and get really depressed. imagine me at a mall or movie theatre…great memories
someone on here said “we are all truly alone” even when we are surrounded by people. its true. 🙁
Interesting thought. I spent most of my life withdrawing from people and I always believed I was a hermit at heart. But All I was doing was avoiding pain. Later in life when I could be truly alone as I always thought I wanted to be I stupidly let another woman into my heart and set up the biggest train wreck of all time. I am still very much the “fly on the wall” even in a crowded room but I suck at being alone. I panic when faced with other people and I panic when I face being alone.
I guess I’m just a confused pile of old rotting debris. A bullet in the head sure seems like a good idea these days. Sedation is my best friend.
me too, but somehow pain still seems to find its way. sedation definetly i know its wrong but i take sleeping pills even during the day. makes me feel like a zombie and totally away from everything.