Welp lets see its all in the name ive started to do…… coke now not weed n pills or k2 anymore I moved up to coke and u no I think its cause I just stopped caring I was doing so good then my friends crashed into my family in the back nothing happened then my gpa got mad told me its always my fault for stuff like this and then my friends made me really happy then my gpa again fucks it up tells me im stupid and crazy well maybe I am I just ugh I give up drugs music thats what helps the most now but drugs drugs help me escape from reality a lil more and maybe just maybe if I go farther itll take me away more farther then ever and make this all stop
I just idk I just give up Im sorry that I cant be the perfect lil child u want ok im mad at myself for doing my mistakes but ive done more good then bad but fine it doesnt matter if I have right fine im so mad at myself why cant I be a perfect kid and just be good and normal
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No one is perfect nor will anyone ever be…don’t be mad about that. You place too much value on what your grandpa thinks of you…don’t try to make it part of your purpose in life to meet his expectations. Try and find happiness solely for yourself don’t let others put you down.
I wish you’d find an alternative to drugs..but I have no suggestions and its not really my place to comment anyways.
Lastly…you aren’t stupid. And everyone is crazy to some extent..so don’t let that bother you.
I dont even know what to do with myself anymore im such a fuck up
Hmm…are you old enough to go out on your own or is it possible at least? It might help you to get away from things whether for a while or more permanently.
You said your friends make you happy so I don’t think theyre too much of an issue…but you could do without your grandfathers input.
I can’t im to young im 16
Ahh….problematic..
Do you live with him or does he just pop in? If the former is there anyone else you could go live with? If the latter you could always leave when he comes around.
On the basis that your grandfather is the main problem here…getting him out of your life is the only solution I can think of unless you can bring yourself to just stop caring about his views.
I live with him and well true but what if my own dad looks down on me now even thou hes gone he can just be disappointed
If your dad is the same way then I don’t know….becoming apathetic about their opinions would probably fix it but not everyone can just do that by wanting to..
Im sorry I don’t really have any other solutions :l
Its alright sorry I didnt answer Im bit hung over