I have brilliant friends who are basically family but i cannot tell them what i am feeling and what i do to myself, they wouldnt reject me or anything im sure they would understand but i do not want them to act differently or take pity on me. im the person they speak to about their problems not the other way around.
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Hmmm. That’s kinda one sided … you might find that friendships deepen if you trust them with your stuff, like they’ve trusted you with theirs.
Just a thought. I’m sorry for what you are suffering – it’s a hellishly lonely place to be.
Gosh I’m the same. I help my friends but when it comes to me I just get nervous and scared. I hate talking to my friends about my bad feelings. I guess being on here makes bottling up from them ok though. It’s enough for me to release here. But do you want to talk to them? Do you want their help?
They would not intend of taking pity or just not understanding but they would not fully understand i mean some of their problems are just so petty and if they knew what ive been going through they would either go overboard or research it like i am diseased. i totally get it stargazer i mean it helps to vent to others who are going through similar stages i dont want to be a charity case or for them to freak out, they are literally the only realise i am still here because they are basically family.
Then I’d not tell them. My past experience with telling those who don’t understand is not so good. But what you might start doing accidentally is distancing yourself from them. I’ve begun to do that and I’m not sure they’re very happy with me. I just can’t understand all those silly things they talk about. I get lost. So watch out for that
Its so difficult to tell them as much as i can without losing them but not telling them too much so i dont scare them away
I know. There’s no easy way to deal with it. I just stay away from my friends when I can. I don’t know. It’s easier to just talk in their level . But at one point the difference between you and them might start showing. The mask may be lost. So be careful. Bottling up for too long can be dangerous.
i like to talk about their small problems as it distracts me to my own, their problems are big to them but seem pointless to myself. i honestly dont know if they know their is a difference between us but obviously i know.