HELP

I wouldn’t do it you will probably just cause kidney or liver damage. And then suffer brain damage from toxins from the liver and kidney. I will no who you are when I see you , because you will be alive from the head up the person with the helmet and mouth gaurd do you get my point. I personally understand wanting to be gone i have seriously tried several times but for some strange reason I am still alive. If it’s not you time you will fail. For example I took an overdose in Seattle I took enough to kill a horse. Someone found me soaking wet and unconscious in a ditch I was in coma and in ICU for 8 days. I should have been dead I had done my research on the meds I took. Most of the time I am glad I did not die but latly I feel like me living was just so I could feel more pain. I know from my past that this feeling of hopelessness will eventually pass. And I try to rember how shitty it would be for the people I left behind. There is always that one person that will think and feel that they should have seen the signs and been able to stop me. They will blame themselves and be miserable ” Nothing like spreading the joy” I have caused enough problems in my lifetime so in my death I do not want to leave one more problem. So for today I will live and just maybe I will call and set up an appt to see somebody for help . I suggest you try to get some help there are people who really do understand what you are going through. I forget that all the time because I feel so alone. And I don’t tell anybody what is really going on . I look good on the outside while I am dying inside. How can anybody help when they don’t even see that there is a problem. All I can say is some days are good and some days really really suck.