Most of you don’t know me, because I’ve usually been pretty quiet here. I’ve read a lot of posts over the years here, however. A precious few of them have even made me feel better, for a time. Thanks to this site and those people who have posted here for making me feel better, if only for a little while.
I’m thinking about bringing things to a close this weekend. I don’t want to back myself into a corner by making it a firm decision, but I think it might be time.
I let it slip at work today that I might not be coming into work anymore, starting next week. No one really seemed to care. This didn’t really depress me, however. All I could think about was that the people I work with won’t be affected, so they’ll just be a few less people that will be hurt by me leaving. I’m feeling pretty flat about it all right now. It’s the first time I’ve felt this way, so maybe, it’s finally time.
I’m just hoping it will be clean, quick and painless. Please feel free to wish me luck, if you want….I’ll need it, I think.
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If you want someone to talk to, I’m here. You can email me at jessica_obryan@yahoo.com. I won’t try to talk you out of it but rather make sure now is the time you’re comfortable with. I’ve been feeling the same way lately. Maybe it would help or at least give us some comfort if we talked a bit first.
I hope you reconsider, I don’t know who you are and I don’t know your story but please believe me when I say that I love you and I don’t want the world to exist without you, if you leave this earth you are being so selfish. The way you feel is the way everyone you know is going to feel if you end things. Let me just paint you a picture, you are one person, you have done things, gone places and talked to people those events didn’t just affect you they affected the pork ole who shared them with you, throughout your life you have touched many peoples hearts and when you go I’m sure every single person who has ever met you would prefer you died of old age after over coming depression and living a happy life. I know you don’t know me and I’m just another person commenting on your post but please if your not staying alive for yourself do it for me and all the other people like me, do it so you can share your story and help people and do it so you can say I have touched people’s hearts and they have touched mine and I will not give up I will continue trying until it gets better because if it’s not better and your not happy it’s not the end. Xx
Such kind words. Thank you for caring about someone who you don’t even know. Karma/God/Whatever you believe in will reward you for that someday, I think.
No I don’t want them to reward me, I want you to reward me, stay alive and live your life to the best you can each and every day.
I’ve had a moderately long life. I’ve seen and done more than most people would experience in 2 lifetimes. I’ve done my share of both good and bad, but I believe I’ve done more good than harm in my life. I think I’ve earned my way out of this world. At least I hope that I have….
Is it time? The answer is no.
Why do you feel that you need to go now?
I don’t like going into the “whys” anymore (at least not in full detail). It’s all hard to talk about, plus, I feel like telling others about the “whys” passes the burden along to the listener/reader, at least in some small way. I’d rather not do that.
I understand.
I hope you stick around though. There is no need for you to go before your time. We are all going to die one day, so we might as well stick around and see what changes. It might get better for all you know. There’s only really one way to find out.
Anyway, best of luck. I will keep you in my thoughts.
Out for the weekend here. I might be back, or I might not. If I’m back, it will be on Tues. If I’m not, then it will have been for the best. Thanks to those who showed concern. I appreciate it.
I always feel conflicted (and jealous) when I see posts like these. Whatever happens, I hope you have a nice weekend and that maybe just even for a moment you experience a state in common with your name on this site.
Well, I for one hope you will return on Tuesday, I see that you have been suffering and wishing death for many years and it’s impossible to say things will improve, they may or they may not but I do hope you can keep going although I acknowledge it must be tough for you, please think about it carefully.
I’ve come back to this post as I hoped you would have come back to us by now No_more_pain, are you still around? perhaps in hospital, if not I hope you didn’t suffer and are at peace.
perhaps in hospital No maybe One day not now
Sorry wrong one
Me tooholp you be ok
Andin hospital sucks out hospitals cool dead or try