This is absolutely true. I don’t tell anybody anything, or even drop any hints that I’ve given up on life. I don’t want anyone to feel they have to step in on my behalf to “help” because that honestly is the last thing I want anyone to do. Just let me go.
Well….for me the warning signs were there….ppl were told….no one stepped in really…..then I stayed my own hand from committing. Someone on here stated they called the police as well to be told the police had already received a call (my own). So I guess someone essentially tried to step in…..but it would have been too late had I not stopped myself. It wasn’t a cry for help. I was just simply crying out in real personal pain. And that pain became overwhelming and still does at times. I don’t fully agree with what you have said…not going to argue though. I just tell you were I was. I wasn’t ready for anyone’s help had they stepped in to do so, but looking back I know I would have allowed it whether I wanted it or not and it probably would have been better for me that way. At any rate. We don’t have to live in lies or secrets. If you are thinking about something as serious as suicide, why shouldn’t you tell someone? It’s could be one of the most important decisions you make in life. And advise should always be sought and given for the important things. Just my opinion. Not trying to fight or argue.
From my personal experience intervention and “help” were some of the worst things to happen to me. When suddenly you become a liability, people will lock you up and try and further themselves from you. The consequences of not succeeding and being intervened are significant, usually you will be put into a psych ward and it is usually a traumatizing experience. As he said, reach out only if you are uncertain (which it seems you were). If you are very certain, then there is a possibility that that you will miss your chance to take your life and have that freedom taken away from you forever. I respect your acceptance of what happened but personally these, to me, are wise words for those who are very serious and understand the consequences of the action they are taking. They understand the implication and the repercussions and have been considering it for years. That one little hint could ruin your life and put you into debt. Again, I am happy someone stepped in, and that you also made your decision to stop yourself, because it seems like you didn’t really want to go through with it.
I just don’t see why I would bother telling anyone. I don’t want people to feel that they should start to care if I’m alive simply because I’m about to die. If people won’t show you that you mattered before it gets to that point, why would you want anyone to “help” when you’re at the brink? It seems like hollow consideration to me.
Exactly right, all. And so my email has been set on delay. I am deciding tonight. Pray harder for those who dissed me. Although maybe they need no prayers for their disbelief or faith that I would not. They know not what they do. Ugh, that is so wrong and probably a sin for me to say. Sorry. So, maybe more and more so, pray for my soul. Tormented and twisted and probably unfaithful and unbelieving… I am so so sorry. If there a God in Heaven, please forgive me.
Personally I am open to a few people about my suicidality, including mental health professionals. It’s a personal judgment call which we all must make. Sometimes sharing it does help at least in the short term. I haven’t got myself locked up for it yet…the thought police are not too active in my neck of the woods. They’ve got bigger fish to fry, and I’ve never attempted or self harmed, so they don’t consider me much of a risk I guess.
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Couldn’t have said it better myself.
This is absolutely true. I don’t tell anybody anything, or even drop any hints that I’ve given up on life. I don’t want anyone to feel they have to step in on my behalf to “help” because that honestly is the last thing I want anyone to do. Just let me go.
Ah hah…..Too late :l
Well….for me the warning signs were there….ppl were told….no one stepped in really…..then I stayed my own hand from committing. Someone on here stated they called the police as well to be told the police had already received a call (my own). So I guess someone essentially tried to step in…..but it would have been too late had I not stopped myself. It wasn’t a cry for help. I was just simply crying out in real personal pain. And that pain became overwhelming and still does at times. I don’t fully agree with what you have said…not going to argue though. I just tell you were I was. I wasn’t ready for anyone’s help had they stepped in to do so, but looking back I know I would have allowed it whether I wanted it or not and it probably would have been better for me that way. At any rate. We don’t have to live in lies or secrets. If you are thinking about something as serious as suicide, why shouldn’t you tell someone? It’s could be one of the most important decisions you make in life. And advise should always be sought and given for the important things. Just my opinion. Not trying to fight or argue.
From my personal experience intervention and “help” were some of the worst things to happen to me. When suddenly you become a liability, people will lock you up and try and further themselves from you. The consequences of not succeeding and being intervened are significant, usually you will be put into a psych ward and it is usually a traumatizing experience. As he said, reach out only if you are uncertain (which it seems you were). If you are very certain, then there is a possibility that that you will miss your chance to take your life and have that freedom taken away from you forever. I respect your acceptance of what happened but personally these, to me, are wise words for those who are very serious and understand the consequences of the action they are taking. They understand the implication and the repercussions and have been considering it for years. That one little hint could ruin your life and put you into debt. Again, I am happy someone stepped in, and that you also made your decision to stop yourself, because it seems like you didn’t really want to go through with it.
I just don’t see why I would bother telling anyone. I don’t want people to feel that they should start to care if I’m alive simply because I’m about to die. If people won’t show you that you mattered before it gets to that point, why would you want anyone to “help” when you’re at the brink? It seems like hollow consideration to me.
Exactly. Not anything I can really add to that.
Exactly right, all. And so my email has been set on delay. I am deciding tonight. Pray harder for those who dissed me. Although maybe they need no prayers for their disbelief or faith that I would not. They know not what they do. Ugh, that is so wrong and probably a sin for me to say. Sorry. So, maybe more and more so, pray for my soul. Tormented and twisted and probably unfaithful and unbelieving… I am so so sorry. If there a God in Heaven, please forgive me.
Peace on your journey DawgMom
Personally I am open to a few people about my suicidality, including mental health professionals. It’s a personal judgment call which we all must make. Sometimes sharing it does help at least in the short term. I haven’t got myself locked up for it yet…the thought police are not too active in my neck of the woods. They’ve got bigger fish to fry, and I’ve never attempted or self harmed, so they don’t consider me much of a risk I guess.