Hello, i just really want to tell someone about this, i really do want to kill myself, everyday i feel anxious, depressed, worried, and most recently angry, i was always fine with the idea of suicide, but recently, i screwed things up, i have a great family, i am dating someone, but, i just cant seem to tell anyone about this, i doubt any of them will understand, i am going through a rough point in my life, and i know i can get through it, but i just simply dont want to, i am always afraid my girl will leave me, i dont tell her how i feel, in fear she will realize what a freak i am, i am constantly jealous and anxious, but i dont tell her, and if i kill myself, i doubt she will even really miss me, i really want to talk to someone about this, i dont want to live to see the future, cause im really not intrested in living on, i am thinking of cutting my entire hand, like to slice it open, to make sure i dont survive, all i know is that i want to end it , i feel so unimportant on this world, i dont belong here
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Hey, I can empathize with a lot of those feelings, and I’m happy to listen/share.
hey thanks, alot, how long have you felt this way?
I hear you begforhappiness. You do say you know you can get through it even though you don’t want to, and that you have a great family. Sounds like you’re ambivalent about life, you’re in pain and it isn’t nice I know.
And slicing your hand won’t solve anything or even be a successful mode of self-deliverance, so please don’t bother doing that.
Thing is, i dont want anything solved, i dont really care about solutions, i really really just do not want to be here anymore, yes, people will call me selfish for leaving behind my family, but in the end, im simply dead, i really do not care, what they would call me, selfish, coward and whatnot, i just want to not feel, its all in my head, so i really shouldnt bother anyone else about it, i am aware, that i can be a better person, but, to be honest, its just really not worth it, thanks for commenting, i appreciate it
I feel the same. I know my situation will get better but I don’t want to keep going. It’s like the situation may change but you will always be the same. At least for me.
hello, if you ever need to talk to someone im here i understand how you are feeling, you just cant seem to do things sright so you put yourself down. just know you didnt do anything wrong so dont blame yourself dominae.johnson@gmail.com