a hurdle overcome

I’ve had my first full proper meal in front of my family instead of on my own and i haven’t purged it nor do i have any intention to

this is a crazy achievement on its own but coupled with the fact im finally okay with eating at all its crazy im still not okay with my weight but that can take a back seat.

i can’t believe this one thing has changed my view in life so dramatically. it might only be for a few hours or days idk. but its a kind of happiness of pride id forgotten i could feel. and that makes things from my anxiety to depression to even my suicidal thoughts not seem so big. the first time in years I’ve felt this good about things. lets hope it sticks around 🙂